𝑅𝑢𝑛𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 (𝐻𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑜𝑛)

𝐶ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑡𝑤𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑦 𝑜𝑛𝑒: 𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑡𝑟𝑖𝑏𝑟𝑖𝑑

Author's note: Hey so first of I just would like to apologize for not updating and if this chapter isn't that good. I've been having a writer's block for this one. This chapter is going to be Hope's backstory after her parents died. It's going to be Hope's point of view. I would also like to issue a trigger warning this chapter contains subjects such as depression, self harm, suicide, and death.

Hope Mikealson's POV (Flashbacks)
I was sitting in my room completely unaware of what had just happened I thought it all was just a bad dream until my aunt Fraya came into my room with my uncle Kol, and Marcel. "Hope sweetie.." Fraya said before I broke down crying. "No please tell me it's not real." I say in between sobs. "I'm sorry sweetheart. You father and uncle Elijah are gone..." Kol said because Fraya was crying "No, No. this can't be happening. Why won't I wake up?" I cry before Kol hugged me. "I'm so sorry little witch." He said as he held me. I cried more as my breathing started getting heavy. And that's all I remember of that day but for the next few months everything went downhill. I couldn't sleep because of the nightmares, No one could even mention either on of my parents without me breaking down crying, I was living with Kol and Davina because Fraya and Klieen we're having a baby and Rebekah and Marcel moved to New York. I hated myself for causing my parents death. When my aunt Davina or uncle Kol left me alone at the house (which was rare) I would drink. And let's not forget the self harming that I was doing daily. Six months later I woke up in my bed and put my hoodie on over my black tank top I had slept in before walking downstairs to my surprise my aunt Davina and uncle Kol were talking to my old headmaster Alaric Saltzman. "Hey sweetie, your up." Davina said with a smile. I forced a smile back even though it was obviously fake. "How long have I been asleep?" She asked. "About a day. You haven't been sleeping well it's okay." Kol said. I nod. "Umm Dr. Saltzman, what are you doing here?" I ask. "Well I wanted to talk to you about maybe coming back to school?" Alaric asked looking at me. Kol and Davina already knew what he was there for because he had talked to them before. I thought for a minute. "Umm I'm not sure. Auntie D, uncle Kol?" I ask. "It's completely up to you Hope no one is forcing you." Davina said. I shrugged. "I guess I can give it a try." I say not actually wanting to go back I just wanted to stop being an inconvenience on my family.  "Are you sure sweetheart?" Kol asked. "Sure why not." I say. "Okay great! I can drive you if you'd like." Alaric said happy to have one of his favorite students back. "When are you leaving?" Kol asked he was very protective over me. "Tomorrow night." Alaric said. "Sounds good I say." I say. "Okay great see you then." Alaric said with a friendly smile. "I'll walk you." Kol said before walking Alaric out to his car. Davina smiled. "You miss him don't you?" She asked. I swallowed unsure if she was talking about dad or someone else. "Who?" I ask. "That boy. What's his name? Landon?" Davina asked knowing I use to kinda have a crush on him. "Yeah it's Landon.. And who knows if he even lives there anymore. I just wanna try to get back to school." I say knowing a part of me did miss Landon, and all of our little talks we had. "Okay sweetheart. Well you know we'll miss you." Davina said before hugging me. I hugged back before we went up to pack my stuff. The next day I hugged my family and said goodbye before leaving with Alaric. For the first hour neither of us said a word so I broke the silence. "So how are the twins?" I ask. "Their okay. They miss you though. We all have. There's actually this new boy at the school, he's a werewolf named Raf." Alaric said with a smile. "Well I've missed you all as too. Sounds interesting. Also Dr. Saltzman, I would like to go by Hope Mikealson from now on." I say. "Okay Hope whatever you want." Alaric said. The next 15 hours were long and exhausting so I was more then happy when we finally arrived at the Salvatore school. We were greeted by Lizzie and Josie who both ran up and hugged me. I hugged them both back. "Your back." Josie said with a smile. "Yeah I guess I am." I say. "How are you?" Lizzie asked looking over at me. "I'm tired. But okay. I'm going to go get settled in and then you girls need to tell me about everything." I say with a small smile. "Okay! See you later Hope." Josie said before her and Lizzie walked off. I carried my stuff to my room and set the boxes in the middle of the room before laying on my bed and just crying into my pillow. I couldn't tell you why I just missed my parents so much. After about an hour I got up and unpacked my boxes. Before going downstairs and talking to Lizzie and Josie. The next few weeks were hell to be honest. There were this group of girls who kept saying awful things about me but one day they said something about my father being a monster and I just lost it. I threw them again the wall with my mind before running to my room and breaking down crying before I grabbed my razor blade from underneath the bathroom sink and turned the water on in the shower before getting in and then cutting my arm and watching the blood drip all over the show floor. But it wasn't enough to satisfy me so I went for my wrist and cut it instead.. Of course it wasn't deep enough to kill me but I ended up passing out from blood loss. On second thought maybe it was a little too deep because next thing I remember was waking up in a hospital bed. I freaked out because of this. I hated hospitals and started hyperventilating. Until a nurse walked in "Hey sweetie, I'm going to need you to try to relax." She said before trying to touch me. I guess to calm me or something but I freaked out. "Don't touch me." I say before pushing her hand anyway but then the bitch gave me some type of drug to pass out. I woke up again but this time in my own bed at the Salvatore school I felt like I wanted to die so bad. I felt so alone, I missed my parents. I just wanted all the pain to stop. This was the first time I tried to kill myself. For the rest of the week Alaric had me in therapy every day as well as babysitting me like I was a child. What I didn't know was he was the one who found my laying in the bathtub in a pool of my own blood. But he didn't tell the girls or anyone besides Emma. He was going to call my family but I begged him not too. The next few months were just as hard. Everything was extremely painful, the bullying continued causing me to lash out and harm on of them by accident. Great now I'm in detention as well I'm still on suicide watch 'great. Just great' I thought to myself as I sat in the empty classroom messing with my hands trying to hide how anxious I was. "Hope.. Again this is the third time this week." Dorian said after entering the classroom. "Yeah.... I know." I muttered still not looking up from my lap. "Okay well how about today we try something new." Dorian said. "Like what?" I ask. "Get you some fresh air. And you can do some research on mythological creatures, in mystic falls." Dorian said. "Sure." I say before standing up. After our little trip was over I went up to the roof and was just thinking for a minute. Until I started having flashbacks of my mom dying and I broke down crying before throwing myself off the roof. But I didn't die I healed almost instantly. What I didn't know is that my umm well let's just call him an old friend had was throwing himself off a roof only a few hours later. Someone saw me jump and almost instantly ran to go get Dr. Saltzman. I groaned and laid on the ground for a few minutes sore from the landing but it wasn't that bad. "Hope! Did you jump off that roof? And are you okay?" Alaric asked after coming over. I sat up before sighing. "No I tripped. And I'm fine." I say both of which were lies. "No you didn't! Hope why are you trying to kill yourself?!" Alaric asked but in an annoyed but also worried tone. "I'm fine." I say before getting up and walking to my room and locking the door and then break down crying again but I heard a knock on my door. "Go away." I muttered. "No Hope sweetheart I can't do that. Please let's just talk." Emma Tig said from the other side of the door. "No.. Not today.." I say. "Okay then tomorrow I'll met with you instead." Emma said before leaving. I shook my head before just laying on the floor and staring up at the ceiling lost in thought. 'Why does it all hurt so much? Why won't it just stopped? I should have died not my dad.' Are the thoughts that were running though my head. I was getting sick of this school, this town, hell I was just getting sick of my life so that night I planned to run so I packed my stuff in my backpack and went to sneak out but there was Alaric standing by the door. "Going somewhere?" He asked. "Yeah just a walk to clear my head." I say crossing my arms. "At 1 am? And no you're not. Though I do need your help with something." Alaric said. "Yeah I got restless. And fine what do you need?" I ask. "Tomorrow can you run tests on a new student? Me and Dorian found him earlier tonight.. Snd get this we think he's a phoenix." Alaric said. "Yeah of course. A what? Like mythical bird?" I ask confused and starting to think Dr. Saltzman was drunk or something. "No well kinda. He died and came but to life in the same way a phoenix does. It's a long story. But he's about your age maybe a little older." Alaric said. "Can I met him?" I asked actually pretty amazed by what I was hearing almost completely forgetting about my plan to runaway well for tonight that is. "Of course. He's in my office with Dorian." Alaric said before we walked to his office and walk in. "Landon this is Hope, she'll be your guide and running your tests tomorrow." Alaric said. "Landon?" I ask in shock not expecting to see him. "Hope? Your supernatural too?" Landon asked. "Yeah.. Apparently so are you." I say unsure of what to do I was internally panicking. "Hope be nice. Sorry about her she's a little moody." Alaric said. I roll my eyes. "You would be too if you were on suicide watch for over a week." I muttered under my breath. Landon looked over at me. "Is everything okay?" He asked. "Yeah of course. Why don't we get you a room." I say before turning away. "Okay sounds great." He said before standing up. "Great, let's go then."' I say before walking out. "Is Dr. Saltzman your father?" Landon asked as we walked. I became sadden by the thought of my father but tried to his it. "Um no he's just my headmaster.. My father's deceased." I say with a hint of sadness in my voice. "Oh I'm so sorry."  Landon said. "Thanks. Anyway here's your room. I'll run your tests tomorrow." I say wanting to get out of there. "Okay well thank you Hope." Landon said. "No problem, see you tomorrow." I say before walking back to my room and laying on my bed and tried to sleep but couldn't so I just ended up painting all night until the next morning I went to the cafeteria to get breakfast with the twins. "Hey Hope planning on jumping off another roof? Freak." A girl said as she laughed. I felt sick to my stomach and overwhelmed with feelings of embarrassment and sadness. I couldn't handle it anymore. "Hey, I have to go run the new boys tests I'll be back later." I say to the twins before walking out of the cafeteria to Landon's room and knocked. "Hey." I said. "Hey." Landon said back with a friendly smile. "Oh um so I'm just here to run your tests." I say. "Oh okay let's do it then." Landon said as if he was expecting me to say something else, and to be fair I wanted to. "Are you okay Hope?" Landon asked. I shrugged. "I'll be fine." I say. "Hope, can we talk later?" Landon asked. "Yeah of course." I say before we go start his tests.  After we did his tests we went back to his room to heal him. The abuse he was had been going through killed me and I don't know  why but I just ended up hold him for awhile. What he didn't know was how bad I needed it as well. After that day everything continues to go downhill until one night I couldn't take it anymore I packed my bag and wrote a letter before sneaking out my window and making my way to the bus stop to run....