As I feel myself stare into the ablis of oblivion I realize that it is not oblivion that I am staring into. It is a dark void of which I tell myself not to feel.
I try to remind myself to grow numb. In which I try and forget all of the emotions I have once had. Happy, sad, pain, loss, triumph all of it.
When I should be reminding myself that I am human. And that the oblivion I long for is not what I think it is.
It's what I feel I need in order to please others
