❛Eros❜ ┇ C.YJ x H.YJ✔️

┃fifty-three

AVIELLE

Agad akong kumaripas ng takbo nang marinig ko ang bell sign that we can already go home. Ah shet, uuwi daw si Mommy. Paano kapag nakita niya si Eros? Nauuna pa naman umuwi yun sa akin shemay.

I tried my best to run as fast as I can kahit naririnig ko sila Freya na tinatawag ako. Kailangan ko na talagang umuwi eh.

Nang makarating ako sa tapat ng apartment at napaatras ako agad nang makita ko si Mommy at Eros na nag-uusap.

I was catching my breath at the same time nakikinig rin sa kanila. Thankfully that I can here them from here.

❝Pasaway ka talaga 'no? Hindi mo ba titigilan ang anak ko?❞ I widened my eyes nang marinig ko si Mommy na sinisigawan si Eros. She shouldn't do that!

❝Mahal ko po si Avielle. You can hate me all you want. But I can prove to you that I am not a bad influence to her❞ hindi ko alam kung anong dapat kong maramdaman ngayon.

D-did he just said that he loves me?

❝Hindi nga kita gusto para kay Avielle! You are just ruining her life!❞ nanay ko ba talaga yan? I.. I can just believe what she was doing right now.

❝I respect your daughter so much, Ma'am. Whatever she wants to do will make me happy as long as she was. Napag-salitaan ko po siya ng masama at nagsisisi po ako sa ginawa ko❞ my tears automatically fell from my eyes. Napatakip na lamang ako ng bibig dahil sa nalaman ko.

So what he said was all a lie? I.. I can't still understand. Kaya ba lumayo siya sa akin? Is it all because of my mom?

❝I don't care! Avielle doesn't need you. Get out of her life❞ napayukom na lamang ako ng kamay bago ako nagdesisyon na lumapit sa kanila at pinunasan ang luha ko.

❝I thought you already changed, Mom❞ matigas na sabi ko. Her face looks shocked right now.

❝What? Did I surprised you? Kase nalaman ko lahat ng pinagsasabi mo kay Eros para layuan ako?❞ I think she was forming another lie again.

❝Anak, I just want the best for you❞ I sarcastically laughed at her. Best for me? All my life, nabuhay akong kontrolado niya ang buhay ko. And now all she has to say that she just wants the best for me?

❝For almost 19 years of living. You controlled my life. Sa pananamit ko, sa kaibigan ko, even my course mom! And all you have to say is that you want the best for me?!❞ I have been keeping all my grudge against her all the time.

I mean I know she's the one that gave me birth but feeling ko kase my happiness was also limited. Lagi na lang akong kino-control. I have my mind now. I am almost 20 and I can think what is right and wrong.

❝You didn't know how much Eros made me happy and now even him mom! Even him, you are taking my happiness to me again!❞ siguro dahil sa sobrang galit ko, hinahayaan ko na lang yung utak kong sabihin lahat ng gusto kong sabihin.

19 years of limited life wasn't fun sa totoo lang. I understand that she was doing it for me kaso sumobra kase masyado. The point that I can't be genuinely happy for myself.

❝Avielle..❞ she was trying to get my hands pero agad ko iyong tinabig.

❝I even talk shit about him mom! And what do you want me to react? Huh? Should I be happy that I talked bad to the only person I started to trust? Now what? Are you happy?❞ I was full of anger and guiltness within me.

Pero kahit naman ganun, hindi ko kayang magalit ng sobra kay Mommy. I love her so much.

❝Avielle, I'm sorry❞

❝Please leave. Please❞ pakiusap ko. She tried grabbing my hands again pero marahas ko itong kinuha avoiding my gaze to her. I just can't forgive her now, I really need time.

❝MOM LEAVE! Utang na loob!❞ I shouted at her. I'm sorry, mom. I'm really really sorry for doing this to you.

Her feet move away from me. She really left me. But I just really need time to think of so many things.

❝Avi..❞ I wiped my tears away saka dali-daling tumakbo. Hindi ko lang siya kayang harapin.

Ako naman ata ngayon yung may kasalanan sa kanya.

I'm sorry, Eros. You don't deserve me

TO BE CONTINUED..