Pain and Serenity

Heard of but never Known

Heard of but never known

My name becoming less of my own

Hiding it from the spotlight because no one can know

The image behind this writing is women is disguise

Strangers reading these pages

Reading the changes, the critics have made

Altering these words to fit in with society

The real me slowly fading into the shadows of the unknown

Silence is all that I can offer myself

This decision causing psychological disputes

Events that have put me in an emotional crisis

Leading to an outpouring of poetry

Days where hope feels out of place

Anxiety and frustration coming after me

This is where hope laid in the body of manuscripts

This is the way to contact the literary public

Are people deeply occupied to see if my verse is alive

Torment written all over the place

Is this not the fresh talent that is being looked for?

Critics who judge writers like entrees

Puzzled touched and fascinated

Eyes staring you down watching the chills run up my spine

Blood, sweat, and tears on every page just to be swept away

No longer captured when these words are on a page

Companionship and encouragement at the palms of these hands

Helping anger work these words onto a page

Words so vivid yet so misunderstood

They want to change these words to silence my thoughts

Thoughts that have the meaning of life

Slipping away each time the clock ticks

But does not change because of mindless games

Rejected by your mind to accept change

Overlooked like children out to play

These words speak to you and dance across the page

The mind has no limitation it's a world of its own

Pens lifted high fighting in war

In these times of success

Your deathbed calling for you to rest

This body is becoming vulnerable

Wanting nothing more than to just sleep

I need time away from these pages-

I lay here-

you stay- there

To close my eyes for a minute

That minute may lead to many more

These pages can wait- and watch-

As this body will come to rot-

And die -