Poems left on paper I'd rather trash

2019 mthfckr

In and out of memories and this one keeps coming by
It won't leave regardless of how hard I try
It's making its self intrusive
But you can't apologize to someone you have yet to speak to

I can't explain how what I've done to you was not intentional
I can't break the hurt I must've caused
And I know I can't stress what a fucking imbecile Alex was

I knew your  thoughts before they occurred
But not your actions nor your words
  Through my hair there was nothing

Uncomfortable yet I'd see you around.
The eye contact was unbearable but we kept making it
I had to break a few times when you wouldn't look away

Look away.

In the autopilot of how I scarred you
Scarred and I cannot cover the fear
I can't stop feeling the anxiety

Waves between my thoughts towards you
And your skewed group of friends

And this is about two guys not one
And this is about regret towards both of them