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Chapter 4

"Okay, Mr. Castle, let's try it again" It was 10 in the morning and Castle was already in full swing, he and Dr. Mendiaz doing brain extrecise which should help with his recovery and make it faster. Spanish doctor was the one asking various questions and Rick was the one trying to answer all of them correctly... Every time his answer matched the one Dr. Mendiaz was seeking for, Castle would get a content nod in return.

"Now try to concentrate some more and let's try this" After getting the answers he wanted to hear, Dr. Mendiaz decide to go a step further

Rick tryed to prepare as best as he could, but before he managed to do so Dr. Mendiaz struck him the question

"What's your wife's name?" First it took him a second to get used to the term Dr. Mendiaz was using...marriage, wife...but he habituated and shortly after his mind started racing with all possible names for brown-haired woman for who everyone claimed to be exactly his wife...

"It's K...." His voice started insecure

"Go ahead..." Dr. Mendiaz encouraging him

"It's Kate" He did, he said the right name but he wasn't the least happy or proud of himself because he did know that he didn't really fully remembered it on his own, he just recalled how he heard the rest of his family call her

"That's great, Mr. Castle!" Dr. Mendiaz giving him credit Rick knew he didn't deserve at all... What's great in relearning what's your wife's name?! Where's great in that?! He questioned himself now taken away in deep thoughts of his own. And why all this people keep telling him he's doing great when miserable is the only thing he can feel... Why is everyone lying to him, telling him it's good, when he himself know it's far from good.

"Now you can suprise her, she's be happy to hear you saying it" Dr. Mendiaz was refering to Kate, of course

"Ya, what a suprise, I bet she's be speechless when she hears it!" Castle a bit of arogantly-sarcastic voice took it's turn after Dr. Mendiaz words

"Give yourself time, Mr. Castle" Dr. Mendiaz again for unpeth time these days tryed to point out there's no need of having this kind of rage towards himself

"And what is she's tired of giving me time, tell me, what then??!" He let all his fears to be seen, to be heard

"I want to remember her, I want to remember my wife, I want to remember about all the love we shared, I want to remember the woman I'm in love with, more than anything I want that" Rick completely opened up, letting his emotions overtake best part of him

"But, I can't, doc, I can't do it, why can't I?? Why?!" Again Castle slowly began to lose his cool and his tone was rising again

"Mr. Castle, we'll get there, you'll heal, I promise you that" To his statement Dr. Mendiaz added one comforting smile to try to lighten up Rick's mood a bit

"Doctor, I am not asking you to promise me, I am begging you to fix me, to give me back my old life" Castle let his voice to trembe with vivid despair, not even Dr. Mendiaz expected from a grown man to gaze at him such a way, no, Castle wasn't asking anymore, he pleaded, he pleaded like a little boy

"You have my word, Mr. Castle, my job here isn't done, unil you remember even the slightless details, I am a man of my words and I'll do my job to the end" That was one firm promise from Dr. Mendiaz and both he Rick clinged to it

"Thank you" In exactly at moments like this, this Spanish surgeon knew exactly why he's doing this job, people say this is not a job but a calling, and they're no wrong, it is a call, you gave yourself in, you sacrifice a lot, you need your family to understad that you need to be here 24/7 for your patients, you're having people lifes in your hands, they depent on you, it's stresfull, it's hard, it's a lot of responsibility, but at the end of day it's all worth it, hearing his patients saying thank you to him is his greatest reward, the moment he sees his patients smiling, hoping, trying, getting better, he, in instant forget all the long hours, all hard operations and tommorow he's ready to do it all over again.