high school loving

new guy

i get home and see mom and dad in the kitchen. i go over next to mom

"hi honey. how was school?" she asks

i shrug "it was okay" i reply. "dad" i say

he's sitting on the chair at the island with an ipad

"i'm a little busy" he says

"adam. put down the ipad and talk to your daughter" mom says. she kisses my head and goes upstairs

i look at my dad "please dad"

he puts down the ipad and looks at me "what can i help you with?" he asks

"it's just that we haven't talked for weeks. you've also been tough on me for some reason. you never are" i say

"that's the problem pumpkin" he says. another nickname he game me

"what do you mean?" i ask

"i can't always be easy on you makenna. you have to grow up and face problems on your own" he says

"i do dad. i'm all grown up. is this still about that one night with me and greyson?" i ask

he doesn't say anything and looks down at the table

"it is..." i say quietly

"you know i like greyson and all but... i'm just shocked. that's all" he says

"but mom was fine with it! why can't you be?!" i exclaim

"don't give me attitude. i'm a protective father, that's why" he says

"but dad-" i say

"we're done talking about this" he says. he grabs his ipad and goes upstairs

i sigh and grab my phone. i go out to the backyard and just lay down on one of the chairs

"hey sis. you okay?" ask maisy as she walks out and lays on the chair next to me

"yeah. i guess so" i reply

"you sure?" she asks

"i'm not sure about anything anymore. everything just feels... different. i don't know if it's just me or what" i say

"oh i feel the same way. everyone is just busy now" she says

"yeah" i say and sigh quietly

it really has felt different... i guess ever since me and greyson slept together. i don't know why. i hate it

as weeks have passed by, i try to ignore whatever the hell is going on. i focus on school and soccer

greyson and i have seen in each in the hallway but that's it. he's been busy. i'm starting to think that we did it at the wrong time but when would the right time be?

i don't have practice today. i go into the school library after school and just study. don't worry, i made sure to tell mom that i'm in the library

"hi love" a voice says from behind me

"hi" i say as my heart tightens

he kisses the top of my head "what are you doing in here?" greyson asks

"i'm just doing some studying" i reply

"grey! let's go!" yells luke

"i'm sorry. i have to go but i'll call you later" he says

i just nod. he kisses the top of my head and walks away with luke

i feel tears form in my eyes and i start crying quietly. i grab my things and go behind a bookshelf. i put my head in my knees and cry