Stigma

XIV

"Uggg Jin. No! Your doing it wrong." Hoseok struggles to teach the uncoordinated man who keeps tripping over his own feet.

"I'm sorry, Just can't bend my leg like that." Jin tries to do the move. Jin knows the basics of dancing. He can do simple things like slow dance, but the poor guy can't even lead.

The choreography is rather simple for their very first song but it's all new to Jin. Who is feeling rather humiliated, he's been stuck on this move for over an hour. Stuck with Hoseok progressively getting angrier and angrier at him.

At this point its a wonder how the younger hasn't exploded. "Watch VERY carefully." Hoseok does the move he finds insanely simple for the thousandth time.

Jin watches as Hoseok practically moves in slow motion. Sweat dripping down his forhead as he tries to focus on how his feet move almost like second nature for him.

"Ok now do it with me." This is where Jin gets lost. He could tell you exactly how to do it how to move and when. The poor guy just laked the coordination to actually move the way Hoseok is.

While trying to watch his own feet and Hoseok's in the mirror at the same time, he stumbles and trips falling to the floor.

With a small ouch Jin gets up as quick as possible apologizes leaving his mouth. When he finally looked at the dancer he could swear steem was comming out of his ears.

Face red in anger hands clenched at his side he was about to snap and Jin knows it. "Sorry, Hoseokie I'll try harder." Jin mumbles softly head hung low in shame.

"No it's fine, we'll work more on this tomorrow. I need a break." Hoseok stomed out of the small dance studio no doubt going to take his car back home, not thinking straight through his anger.

Jin lets out a soft sigh and wipes the sweat off his face. It is hot today, but that wasn't going to stop him from working extra hard trying to get the dance memorized. Trying to be as good as everyone else.

Jin felt pathetic, he had been training for much longer than everyone else and he still is falling behind in singing and dancing. He's questioning himself in whether he should even be in the group or not.

Something as simple as a side step messing him up so badly. What is he supposed to do when the choreography gets more complicated and more confusing.

Jin stands infront of the mirror ignoring the headache he's had for at least half an hour now, and his mild dizziness.

He needed to figure out how to do this. He needed to be at least as good at dancing as Namjoon.

They both kind of suck but at least Namjoon had picked up the move yesterday when it was being tought to them.

He hates the fact that even Hoseok left him, Hoseok is supposed to be the best at this type of dancing.

Starting from the beginning. Jin moves slowly doing each movement at a time. Moving similar to a robot from how stiff he is. But it doesn't matter right now because he's not infront of anyone. He's just going through the movements trying to memories them. To burn them into his mind.

Despite how slow and cautious Jin was being towards the end of the song (where he keeps messing up) he still manages to stumble over himself.

Trying again and again and again and again and again and again. Ignoring his pounding head, the growing dizziness, the dark spots slowly blocking his vission of the mirror infont of him.

Jin fell to the floor again but this time it wasn't from triping over himself, this time it was out of exhaustion. Passed out on the ground laying awkwardly making it difficult to breathe. Still sweating despite not moving on the cold wooden floor, it's just that hot.

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"Jinnie Hyung!" I happily open the doors to the dance studio. Yoongi Huyng had just picked me up from school, I was exited to tell him about my good grades on the finials I had taken today.

My smile dropping immediately when I see him laying awkwardly on the floor. "Hyung?" Nothing.

I set my backpack on the ground my the door and drop the papers suddenly they aren't important anymore. "Jinnie Hyung why are you on the floor?"

Walking over to him as Yoongi Hyung finally catches up to me. Still not getting a response from him I crouch down and lay him on his back. Gently shaking him. His eyes are closed like he had fallen asleep. Wasn't he practicing with Hobi Hyung?

"Hey kid what's- Seokjin why are you on the floor?" Yoongi interupts himself taking in what is happening.

"Yoongi Hyung, Jinnie Hyung isn't waking up." To say I am worried is an understatement. How long had he been practicing alone, and on such a hot day. Why was he in such a bad sleeping position?

Yoongi seemed pretty worried however, cursing as he rushes over to Jin. Gently feeling his neck before pressing down hard on his top lip just under his nose.
"Jungkook go get ice and a bottle of water."

Not asking questions I get up and run out of the room. What is happening? Is he ok? Why is Yoongi Hyung so worried?

Opening the fridge in the resting room grabbing a bottle of water and filling a bag full of ice. It's really hot today.

Poping an ice cube into my mouth sqeed walking back to the dance studio. Wait its hot, really hot. Did Jin pass out?

Finally understanding Yoongi Hyung's panic I practically sprint back to them. Jinnie Hyung is still laying on the ground but he's awake now.

Sliding on my knees across the floor and gently placeing the ice on his forehead. "Hey Koo baby, shouldn't you be at home?"

"Shouldn't you be smarter than this?" Jin covered his eyes with his arm. Yoongi was fine, but he didn't want Jungkook to see him like this.

He wanted to be a good Hyung. He wants to be someone Jungkook looks up to and thinks I want to be like Hyung one day.

But singing dancing and even cooking seem to come naturally to that maknae. Jin knows that Jungkook will never look at him and think the same things he thinks about the younger.

Jungkook will never look at Jin and think about wanting to kiss all his problems away. Why would he.

Jin is nothing special. Just an ordinary clumsy guy who can't hold a note. He wasn't even that good looking.

"M sorry." Jin finally let out so quiet that Jungkook almost didn't even hear.

"Yoongi Hyung can you step out a minute please." Yoongi was hesitant but left anyways.

"Jin, what happened?" Jungkook speaks once the door closes. "Nothing, I just got over heated."

"Please don't lie to me Hyungie." Caught off guard Jin stays quiet his arm still hiding his face.

"I came here instead of going home because I wanted to tell you I got good scores on the tests today." Jungkook changes the subject.

"Really?" Jin finally uncovers his eyes to sit up wanting to see how well his baby did.

Jungkook went to grab the papers he had droped sitting down next the Jin showing him the test scores.

They aren't the highest and the English test he barely passed with a 63 but he was proud nevertheless.

Jin was really proud of his ba- of the baby. "Great job Koo, you did very good." Jin smiled at the young boy who is grinning at the papers infont of him.

"Namjoonie Hyung helped a lot with my english score normally I don't even get above 40."

Jin brushed the hair out of the boys face and smiled at how happy he is. Glad the topic had changed away from him.

He had a strong urge to risk it all and pull Jungkook into a kiss. The boy was just too cute for Jin's damaged heart. Instead of placing a kiss on his lips one lands on his cheek. Lingering for just a second too long.

Jungkook turnes red, he blushes so hard his neck turns pink. Looking at Jin in suprise. He leans up and kisses Jin's cheek back.