Love You, Goodbye

Goodbye

This is going to be a short goodbye chapter. This is also the last chapter 

Harry held onto Louis as tight as he could. Louis could not leave him. He loved Louis so much and he honestly did not know how he could ever move on from him. He would be so lost without his Louis.

Louis knew Harry was going to have a hard time letting him go. He knew Harry was going to beg him to stay. Louis knew he had to be the strong one and walk away. He needed to do this for himself. He couldn't do what Harry wanted him to do and he wasn't going to hold Harry back any longer. 

Harry was crying. Louis could tell because he was shaking while holding him. 

" Harry, I am sorry. I need to leave." Louis said quietly. He was so afraid of how Harry was going to react. 

" No, Louis please stay. Please. I love you and we can work this out. I can't lose you Lou. I just can't." Harry cried. He held Louis so close to him. 

Louis tried to pull away, but Harry had a really tight grip around him. He knew he was going to have to be firm with Harry. 

" Harry, you need to let me go. I need you to unwrap your arms from me and let me get up." Louis stated firmly. 

Harry did not want to let Louis go. He knew the moment he released him he would be out the door and gone from his life. He could not lose his Lou. 

" Lou, please." Harry cried harder and louder. 

Louis laid there with Harry for a moment. He did not know what to do. He needed to leave as soon as he could. He had already stayed over night and that was never the plan. He knew this was going to hurt Harry and him more the longer they drug it out. Hell, it already hurt so much. He wanted to stay and keep himself locked up in Harry's arms forever, but he knew he couldn't because Harry would never truly be happy staying in the closet with him. This was the only way.

" Harry, I have to leave. I have to say goodbye now and you have to let me leave. You knew this was going to happen. You knew I came to break things off. Last night doesn't change anything. I am still going to leave." Louis said sadly. He hoped it didn't come across as harsh, but he also had to le Harry know that he was serious. He wasn't here to have his mind changed. His mind was already made up last night. 

Louis felt Harry loosen his grip just a little, like he was thinking about what Louis said. Louis decided he was done with this and it was time to get up. So, he pushed back as hard as he could and Harry, not expecting that, lost his grip on Louis. Harry stilled for a moment. 

Louis jumped up from the bed so that Harry could not pull him back down. Harry jumped up too wanting to do whatever he could to get Louis to not leave.

" Please Lou, please don't do this. I can stay hidden with you. I don't want to tell anyone about us anymore. I will do whatever you want me to do, but please don't do this. Don't leave me." Harry begged Louis. Harry had tears pouring down his face. His eyes were blood shot red from crying so hard. 

"Haz, no. I have made up my mind and we are over. I am so sorry. I love you too so much and this is why I am doing this. So you can be free and open. So you can live your life and be proud of who you are," Louis firmly told him. He moved towards the living room gathering his keys and wallet on the way.  

Harry followed behind him still crying. 

"Louis, stop. Please." Harry cried out. " Please, it hurts Lou. I can literally feel my heart breaking. Can we please work this out. Lou, we have the whole world in our hands, we can do anything and make this work, but only together."

Louis stopped and turned to look at Harry. " Harry, I am hurting too. You have no clue how hard this is to walk away from someone I thought I would be with forever. I am not staying though. Last night we talked. We spent the night together. We had one last time together. Now, I need to walk away. I need you to let me walk away." 

Harry just looked at Louis. He really thought they would of worked thru this together and that Louis would of changed his mind. How can this be happening? He hurt so bad. He knew Louis was going to leave now and there was nothing he could do or say to change his mind. 

Louis turned to walk away. Harry grabbed Louis' wrist, spun him around and kissed him on the lips. Harry kissed him hard and rough. Louis kissed back and like always, they fought for dominance. Neither winning. 

After a few moments, Louis pulled back. 

" I am done Harry." Louis said. 

Harry fell to his knees. " Lou."

Louis walked to the door and opened the door, looking back at Harry. Blue eyes meeting green eyes one last time.

" Please, Lou. Let me love you." Harry cried. 

Louis shook his head, " Goodbye." 

With that, Louis left and Harry fell over and cried.