Angst
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Are you happy now? Happier with him, without me.
How could you forget me? You promised to grow old together.
Was that all a lie? Why did you leave? Thought we could build a family.
Do you love him? More than you loved me?
You left me when I was at my worst.
You broke me the same day you said "I love you".
Was I joke? Was I a toy to play around with?
You loved calling me nicknames, why did you stop? Weren't we perfect?
The night in September, you called me yours, why in December, you forgot about it?
I thought the kisses and cuddles were special.
I even gave you my body for you to cherish. And this is how you repay me?
I loved you longer than I loved myself, why did you stop?
Is he perfect? You said he was a 'friend', why lie to me?
You promised the world, why did you just gave me a plastic globe?
The song we both called ours, did you forget about it?
Our late night text, saying 'I love you' in the end, was it a game?
Breakfast in bed, movies at midnight, isn't that what we call affection?
You don't know how much I suffered because of you.
I lie to myself everyday, just telling myself it was a dream, but it wasn't.
Everyday I wake up in bed, you're not beside me. Like you said you would be.
Couldn't you lie to someone else? Why me?
Our garden that we planted, why isn't anyone watering it?
Our late night drives at the cliff side, was it all a dream?
Took care of you when you got sick, why aren't you taking care of me when I am?
You said you loved me under the stars, I hate them now.
I shouldn't blame you, but it's hard.
Just knowing that you're not by my side.
I wanna run off to a universe when I'd still call you mine.
We read love novels, for fun. But when I read them now, it just hurts.
I want you to embrace me in you're arms, where I feel safe and sound.
Why did we break up?
Didn't you love me? Was I the only one?
The holidays we had, it was fun knowing you were there.
"You're my everything", you said.
You were crying because you loved me, you stopped, do you hate me now?
The photos that you and I took, full of love and memories. Did you throw it?
The videos of you and I happy and in love. Did you pretend?
I saw you kiss him last week, we did that too, so why? Why did you look happier?
You didn't cheat, but why did it feel the same?
It's not jealousy, it's betrayal.
You betrayed me.
Did you pretended to love me Osamu?
You traitor.
Why do I still love you?
Rintarou Suna
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