Don't Catch Feelings

Part 64

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Majesty POV

We went home and my parents were trying to talk to me but all I could do was stare into space thinking about what just happened.

When he said we should break up I wasn't really thinking. And just agreed and I didn't really mean it. But he sounded so mad he actually sounded like he meant it.

I kept kinda looking at my phone hoping he would text me or call me or FaceTime me or something. But he didn't.

We went home and I ran up to my room closing and locking the door really not wanting to be bothered.

"Majesty?" I heard my mom knock on the door.

"Please leave me alone." I said trying to hide that I was crying.

"Majesty your letter from your dance school came." She said and I got up and opened the door and she handed it to me.

"Are you gonna open it?" She asked.

"No. What's even the point. Jungkook said when it came we would open it together. I don't even care anymore." I said throwing the letter across the room.

"Majesty you have been hoping to get this letter for weeks." She said.

"I don't care. I want Jungkook." I said closing the door back and heard her sigh. But she just won't understand how much Jungkook means to me. He is amazing. The light of my life.

I went over to my bed and got my blanket and cried into my pillow hard as hell. My tears were so hot. I was crying so hard I could barely breathe. I was trying to calm myself down but it wasn't working. I need Jungkook. And he'll never know I loved him.

The Next Day

I cried most of the night and then cried myself to sleep. Because everything I looked at reminded me of Jungkook in some way.

I planned on staying in bed all day and crying some more but my mom came in the room and sat on the bed next to me.

"I'm not even gonna ask if you're okay. Because judging by the way I heard you crying. You're clearly not okay. You should get up and go over there." My mom said.

"No. No. No. I cannot." I said shaking my head.

"You have to talk to him. Even if he doesn't answer the door. It's better to go over there and know that you tried. Than stay here and think about what you could have done. I hate seeing you like this." She said.

"Mom. I can't. If I look at him in the eye I'm just gonna break down." I said.

"I see the way Jungkook looks at you. And I'm 95% sure he is broken over this too. Please go over there. I don't want you to live your life with regret." She said and I sighed.

"Fine mom. Fine. But you have to accept what I give you. If I get outside the house and get too nervous. You have to be okay with that." I said.

"I'll take what I can get. At least you went over there." She said.

"I have to go to work. I guess I'll know how it went when I come back." She said getting up.

My mom left and I sat on my bed for like 2 hours procrastinating. And then I took a deep breath and got out of the bed. It took a lot of me but I did.

I made my bed and went to the bathroom and took a shower and did my routine. And I didn't dress up, but if I do build up the courage to go up to the door I don't wanna be seen looking bummy and ass. I wore this.