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jaemin x johnny pt.2 // i just wanna see you in my bed

'i just wanna see you in my bed part 2'

original author: beenzino on Ao3 (link at the end)

THIS STORY IS PART OF A SERIES! I'll update the parts as soon as the original author posts them. This it a great story so please enjoy!

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he doesn't know how long he ignores johnny for, maybe a week, maybe more.

he busies himself by working and fueling the never ending tasks dawned on him by the fans and his management. he's carded around like a toy for the better half of a month, all while ignoring the searing pain in his chest everytime johnny comes up in conversation.

he's learned, from the past five months, that johnny's attention is like a drug. and from the second he took the first dose, and when he climbed into johnny's bed that night, he's been hooked on it.

when johnny looks at him, it's like a whole storm erupts inside his head. dark, angry clouds swirl around, warning him of danger, because johnny is so dangerous and he's completely enamored with it. addicted to the feeling that johnny gives him, likes he's simultaneously means the whole world to and nothing to him.

and after a couple days it gets easier. the day time is so hectic he barely has a spare second to think, constantly doing something to take his mind of the gaping hole in his heart. but the second he closes his door, sinking into the sheets that still smell like him, it all comes back ten times more intense. like johnny is there, one hand around his throat, telling him that if he breathes he dies.

johnny is his oxygen and jaemin doesn't realize it until he's already gone, barely living, holding his breath constantly. its when he lets his mind fill up to the brim with the thought of him that he finally can inhale the poison that johnny gives him.

jaemin does not expect it to take such a toll on him like it has. and it definitely does not go unnoticed throughout his members, which is just another headache to add to the list of problems he must deal with alone.

jeno's eyes have been glued to jaemin for the entirety of dinner, fixating on each bite jaemin takes until he can barely swallow without feeling judged. he hasnt looked up from his bowl of ramyeon since they sat down, and he can feel jeno's gaze digging into him, like he's trying to surface whatever answers he's looking for.

jeno clearly doesn't care for how uncomfortable he's making the younger, completely dismissing the fact that he's watching him eat, while jaemin pushes the nausea down after each bite, trying hard to not throw up from the anxiety of it all.

jaemin barely finishes his food but he's lost all of his appetite by the time the noonas start to clear the table. he gets up, emptying the remnants into the sink before trying to make an escape from the dining room as fast as possible. he hears jeno get up, can feel him following him back into the hallway.

jaemin turns around once he's in the doorway of his room, facing jeno who's right in front of him. "can you not-"

"cant we just talk." jeno pleads, staring at him. his voice aggressive and so out of character, jaemin flinches.

"no."

"jaemin.."

"there's nothing to talk about." jaemin walks back into his room, not even bothering to block jeno from entering.

"i just wanna talk, jaemin. i know you're keeping shit in right now, going through stuff is hard when you have no one to talk to.."

"im not going through anything." he insists, looking up at jeno. "i don't know what your talking about."