Save me

CHAPTER 7

Him

We both don't know what to say after that passionate kiss. Maybe for anyone who will witness such scandalous scene may think that we are just driven by lust. We're just too horny that's why we can't stop our raging hormones. Well even I will conclude the same way. After all we're just human beings who happen to be judgementals.

But it speaks something different for me. His kisses makes me feel wanted and loved. For someone so broken and lost I feel the Almighty granted me what I wanted all these years.

A safe haven.

A comforter.

A salvation.

The beginning of serendipity in my life seeps in through my parched soul. It's overwhelming yet as the hope arises fear also creeps in.

Dahil lahat ng nag uumpisa ng mabilis at madali ay madali ring baliin at alisin. It's funny to think that even those people who waited for such a long time for someone they love. Ended up with the same situation like those who just waited for months. They earned nothing except pain.

Broken hearted.

Cheated.

Fell out of love.

Toxic relationship.

However, I want to take risk and live by my name.

Athena the goddess of wisdom and war. Along with fear of getting hurt and broken is the hope that maybe the world with its viciousness and cruelness, a little kindness might overthrow it.

So, I will love him with all of me. Even if it means ripping myself apart. Be with those people who risked everything yet got nothing but broken promises. You know why? because they hoped too and that's what I'm doing right now - hoping. Dahil kahit na may sakit may saya pa rin. It will not be sadness overall, there will be rainbows and butterflies. Kaya susugal ako.

Hinatid niya ako sa University ng walang kibo. It's okay with me because even I is kind of petrified. Medyo OA yung petrified pero yun talaga yung nararamdaman ko. Speechless and ashamed because who wouldn't right?

Hindi lang nakita kagabi halatang sabik na sabik na? Mas marupok pa ako sa lamesa namin! I only met him yesterday and yet I'm so into him.

' Hoy! tulaley ka na naman diyan!' my bestfriend said.

Bobble de Leon or Bobby as I call him has been my bestfriend since God knows how long. He's bubbly and is it a requirement to describe him? He's not like those fictional characters na may gusto sa best friend niya okay? Our relationship is purely platonic. Anyway, masyadong matabil ang dila nito. So, if I wanted someone to give me an advice with 100% truth and 100% bluntness he's the one. Which is I hated but liked about him. I like that about him because sometimes I want someone who'll slap me the truth. Kung ang iba gustong gustong sinasangayunan sila kahit na mali ako hindi. There are times that people even the truth is laid bare in front of our eyes we still chose to turn a blind eye. Kaya minsan kailangan mo ng isang tao na mag papa realize sayo na mali na yung ginagawa mo. Not to drag you down but to wake you up. That's the true friendship and a genuine love.

' May sasabihin ako sayo' I said as I faced him seriously. Alam niya na kapag ganito ako ay seryoso talaga ako. I am kind of nervous but determined to tell him about what happened.

I narrated everything to him except of course describing the kissing scene. However, I told him that we already kissed and just like what I expected he freaked out.

' Ano ba naman yan Athena! Nag iisip ka ba?' he said angrily. Telling me how easy to get I am brushing it off to my face even. See? I told you he'll react this way.

' Alam ko okay? Kaya nga nag tatanong ako kung anong gagawin ko!' I frustrately said. Kasi kahit ako hindi ko alam gagawin ko. Of course! I'm afraid but just like what I said gusto kong subukan.

' You know you're stupid. Nag tatanong ka pa eh mayroon ka ng decision!' he said like I am the dumbest person in the world. Well that's right! Stupid Athena.

I was about to defend myself but our professor came in. A heavy footsteps ringed in my ears but I ignored it. I was expecting a heels clicking on the floor but I shrugged off the thought. Maybe the professor doesn't wear heels. Kadalasan naman ng mga naging professor ko ay babae. So, hindi ko na lang tinignan at isa pa hindi pa tapos mag salita si Bobb.

' Mamaya ka sakin' he said with the hint of warning. Talagang hindi niya ako tinantanan ng tingin hangga't makaupo siya sa pwesto niya. Muntik na nga niyang hablutin ang buhok ko. He's pissed big time.

Napalunok na lang ako kasi alam ko na totoo yung mamaya na yun. I will ready my ears for a sermon later from Bobby. I decided to sat down and not look in front, not giving an attention to our instructor. Since 2nd year naman na ako hindi na ako gaanong kinakabahan. My enthusiasm to study now is nothing compared to when I was a freshmen. Siguro kung noon to my focus will be in front, taking notes some important requirements. Kahit siguro syllabus sinulat ko pero iba ngayon. My energy is nowhere to be found.

I sighed not minding about the discussion. My mind has been wandering off about earlier. How his lips grazing my lips and while his tongue swirling inside my mouth. Stop please! I fanned myself because the temperature is rising. Biglang uminit ang pakiramdam ko dahil sa alaalang yun. I can't believe I'm thinking sensual thoughts here inside the classroom.

' Umalis ka na nga!' I shouted subconsciously.

The whole classroom was silenced. O-M-G. Did I say that out loud? Please tell me that I only shouted in my mind. No you don't my little devil said. I chuckled awkwardly and decided to face them.

I was about to apologize but it was halted because of who is in front.

That's why there is no clicking heels but only heavy steps and manly scents is because of HIM.

My professor is holding a whiteboard marker, while biting its lid. He was about to write something but stopped in the middle because I shouted.

Now he's attention is all on me. He looks a predator ready to devour his prey. In my case, that's me. Nanigas ako sa kinauupan ko dahil hindi ako makapaniwala sa nakikita ko.

Elijah is my freaking professor!

What the heck?