"Don't ever tell me there's no way! It's on you. Get it done."
"We protect our own."
"You can't save from themselves, sir."
"You can if you get them early enough."
"I know what the safety of a thousand men is worth. I know the importance of taking the Overkill device out of play. But I also know my men ... and what they're worth!"
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His skull was about to burst. The last time he hadn't been able to sleep and stayed awake this long was when he was drawing that alien writing. Now, he was seeing the man he used to be before HYDRA, the man at some point he almost stopped being.
With sweat running down his forehead, Coulson got up from the bed and opened a drawer. There was the picture he hadn't looked a for over a year. It was taken after his kidnapping, after they had recued him and their team became a family. He remembered that he had still been feeling the shock and the dread of finding the half truth about TAHITI and his death but before he locked himself in his office, he had felt happy and grateful to have this team.
After the HYDRA reveal and Ward's deception coming to surface, they either burnt all the pictures containing him or ripped him apart from them. This was the only one that didn't suffer either of those fates.
Because despite everything he had done, there was big part of Coulson that wanted that family back. He had come to appreciate everyone on the team. Simmons with her sweet and kind nature and genuine care, Fitz with his unending optimism, Skye with her snarky and rebellious attitude, Ward with the heart he had hidden underneath his serious demanour... (He never stopped appreaciating May)
And it was gone. Skye heartbroken, wanting turn herself into a mini-Cavalry not just to meet his expectations but also to ensure what Ward did wouldn't happen again. Gone was the lively girl he had found in an alley. Gone was the girl that brought the team some light even in the darkest hours.
FitzSimmons were no longer FitzSimmons. Fitz's faith in Ward had turned out to be misplaced (or it had seemed like that back then. The recent events were making them all reconsider). He faced the harsh truth of the reality and on the way he had almost lost the two things he valued the most. He had been slowly regaining them but the damage had left its mark. Simmons's change was less pronounced. For a while she wanted to act like nothing changed but it was impossible. Too much had changed for comfort and she lost not just her innocence but also her sweet nature, what had made her Simmons for years.
May's change was impossible to see to the others but he could notice. The team had started to melt her heart. She had been rebecoming the person she used to be, before Bahrain. But Ward's betrayel and being taken advantage of had put her in that stupor again.
Ward, Ward, Ward...
It all came to Ward at the end but there was a seed of doubt in him that wondered, did all of the fault lie with Ward? The team was devastated but did it have to stay that way? Ward had tried to reach out, make amends which they all had percieved as him manupilating them, specifically Skye? After how easily he had lied to them were they wrong to be suspicious? No, but they never tried to find out the truth. Something he had done for others.
Despite the unknown, the danger, the kills, and the crimes, didn't he defend Akela? Didn't he wait until he found out the whole truth before coming to a conclusion before making a judgement?
Skye... She had betrayed the team twice. On the first occasion, he listened and gave her a second chance but the second one, the one with her mother, he let it all slide. She had been played too and when she saw the truth she switched back sides, but did that change the fact she had chosen someone she had barely known over the people she had called family?
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"Was it all a mission? Did we mean nothing to you?"
FanfictionPursued by the real SHIELD, Fitz turns to Ward for help. After an explanatory conversation, Fitz changes his point of view. This book won't include the events of the sixth and seventh seasons. Also posted on archiveofourown