Just friends?

Lost

Kian followed me back to the kitchen area. "Are you okay?" he asked me. "Yeah sure" i faked that smile. "So... Where to start?" Kian looked at me while trying to sit still on the vhair by the bar. "I don't even know Kian... I mean. We were so good until Hawaii. You fucked up big time" i told him. He was just sitting there. Looking at me like i was nothing. "Kian" i raised my voice. "Yeah sorry. I mean.. You are right. I don't know really what happened but i don't think this between us will ever work. I'm not ready to be in a relationship. I'm not that kind of a guy anymore. Sorry." it was quiet for a minute. "Okay. This is all i wanted to hear. Go ahead and fuck girls. I dont mind" i faked that happiness again. "Okay" he said with that weird but calm voice while raising his shoulders up. "Okay" i said again.
He left the kitchen. I was in my bedroom for the whole day. Just talking to Theo. He was a sweet guy but i still love Kian. And its killing me. As the night came the house was fully cleaned. But i was alone. Kian didnt even tell me where he was going.
"Hi Trevor" i said while watching a movie on a big TV screen and sipping my juice. "Hello" he answered and decided to sit next to me. "Are you feeling okay?" i asked just to make sure. He just nodded. We were talking, eating, laughing and watching a movie. "Kylie are we home alone?" Trevor asked. I nodded. "Ohh they went there. These little fuckers" Trevor yelled while running around. "What are you talking about?" i asked. "Cmon Kylie. Lets go" he took my hand and started to drag me out. "Follow me now" Trevor said. He looked so excited and i was looking like a piece of shit. "Are we close?" i groaned while walking down the street. Trevor just nodded. Suddenly i could hear music. And a little later i saw a big house with bunch of people. "Helloo" people welcomed us by yelling hello. After some time i found my friends. And i ended up a little smashed.
It was about 3 in the morning and the party was still in full progress when my phone started to ring. It was Kian. "Yes?" i said. "Come...up" he told me. "What?" i yelled in to the phone. "Come pick..." he said again. I could not understand him. I wasnt sure if it was me so drunk or it was him. "Where are you?. I yelled while getting away from a big group of people. "Big bush" was Kian talking. "Okay i will find you now" i said and ended a call while Kian was still talking something. "Where the fuck is he? I was talkonf to myself while walking around. "Kylie" someone jumped right in front of me. "Fuck" you could heard me scream. "Really Kian. You look so drunk right now" i told him while he fell down because he was too drunk to even stand. "Come on lets get you home" i said tryint to pick him up. "No! Leave me! Im waiting for Leah" he screamed at me. "Who the fuck is Leah?" i asked with this pathetic look on my face. "I called her before. She is the one who will get me home" he said. "Kian.. You were talking to me idiot" he looked at me suprised but then stood up and we went home.
As i was putting the blanket on him se said something but i did not hear him. "What did you say?" i asked him. "Stay with me" he said and turned his face to mine. His eyes were beautiful. I kinda got lost in them. Again.