I think I've broken
I think I've finally reached my limit and shattered in my own arms
A meter so full now that nothing can be kept inside
My brain rushing with thoughts of disappointment and regret
Pushing myself to new mental limits is out of the question
I've fallen
Like a young kid riding their first bike
I've landed on the ground
With scrapes and bruises and a crushed feeling
Ive lost sense of who I am
I used to be someone else
Perfectly rational
Able to think
Now I'm plagued
Plagued by rotting thoughts in my brain
Feeding on my sorrows and lack of self worth
Arching over me sending me into spirals of self hatred
Crushing me with regrets
Slamming my face into the ground of guilt
I know im not perfect
I know i will never be
I'll never try to be perfect
Because all I want is to be decent
I want someone to tell me I'm doing a good job
To be happy for me
That's all I want
