𝟠𝕥𝕙 𝕞𝕖𝕞𝕓𝕖𝕣 𝕠𝕗 𝔹𝕋𝕊

Hate pt.3

The door was ripped off its hinges

They stormed in. Jin took one glance around the bathroom and ran towards you

'Oh y/n....'

he pulled you in his embrace, ignoring your sharp protests. you tried getting him off of you, but his grip was firm

'no! don't fucking touch-'

he planted his lips on yours, his breath hitching at the metallic taste of blood

he cupped your cheeks, wiping off the tears which were flowing down

there was a low thump. jungkook fell on his knees, taken aback from your condition, covering his mouth with his palm. it hurt like a stab in the heart, seeing you so overwhelmed, seeing his precious kitten suffering

you broke the kiss and sobbed freely on jin's chest, hiccupping and sniffing every few second. jin held your frail figure tight, afraid to let go. he bit his lip, trying not to cry. it hurt him so much seeing his princess so overwhelmed and scared

he gently picked you up bridal style, carrying you outside

'jungkook-ah, can you get the first aid box?', he softly asked jungkook

jungkook nodded obediently, scurrying off.

jin walked towards your bed and tenderly placed you on the warm mattress. he was about to go help jungkook -who was shuffling in his cupboard to find the first aid box- when he felt a light grip on his wrist

he looked down to find you holding his wrist, avoiding looking him in the eye, sniffing. his heart softened as he sat on the bed with you, holding your stained hands

'y-your clothes - I-I stai-ined you-your clothes- I'm s-sorry-', you said between hiccups and irregular breaths, looking at his shirt which was now stained and dirty

'jagiya, don't worry about it hm? its fine, its not your fault', he said softly, caressing your knuckles with his thumb

jungkook came towards the bed, stumbling a bit.

He placed the box down and sat down in front of you

He held your bony wrists, staring at them and then looked up to meet your eyes

His eyes held pain, anger, disappointment, everything. You could see it.

That was the reason I didn't want them to know, I didn't want them hurt

He looked away, wiping his watery eyes with the back of his hand and fumbling with the box

There was a crash outside and you slightly flinched

The previously still silence was broken with hurried footsteps and the room's door was pushed open sharply

In came the rest, stopping mid way when they took in the scene in front of them

Namjoon stumbled backwards, the phone clutched in his hand falling down as he placed his hand on his mouth

Hoseok and yoongi were just stunned, they just stood there, their eyes frozen but there was a storm of different emotions raging inside

Jimin fell on his knees, tears filling his brims, his mouth agape

'Y/n!', taehyung called out in shock

He ran towards you and hugged your figure tight.

His hands clutched at your shirt tightly with his tears dampening your shoulder

'Wae wae wae?' He questioned repeatedly, his hands on your shoulders as he looked up at you, his eyes red with tears filling up his brims rapidly

'Mianhe...', you croaked in a broken voice, this hurt him even more

Jin looked away, finally letting his tears spill which he had held in.

Namjoon silently led everyone on the bed as he closed the door, seating them all down

Yoongi was silently breaking down, namjoon held him close with his arm wrapped around yoongi

Yoongi just stared with a pained expression, his eyes slowly going red with the amount of tears silently falling down his face

Jimin patted jungkook's back who was silently sobbing in his palms, jimin couldn't help as his own tears fell, looking at the people he loved, hurt

Hoseok sat still, confused and shocked, still processing everything

Taehyung glanced at namjoon, still holding your hands tight as if afraid to let go

As if they talked thru eyes, namjoon got up and sat in front of you, taehyung getting up and sitting beside yoongi

Namjoon softly held your hands, caressing your knuckles as his eyes saw all the bruises and cuts.

He met your eyes, staying silent as he saw the way your eyes looked so tired and scared

It hurt him, seeing the person who was always there for him in the state

His eyes unknowingly started watering

He silently asked, not breaking the eye contact as his fingertips grazed your knuckles

'Why?'

You couldn't help but notice the slight shakiness in his voice, something which was very rare to hear from the leader but the eye contact was firm

'I-I-', you broke down into sobs

Hoseok pulled you in his embrace sideways, patting your head as you sobbed on his chest, wetting his shirt

He held in his own sobs, the tip of his nose going red as he sniffed silently

Namjoon tilted his head and kept staring at you, his grip on your hands tightening as his heart ached at the sight

'I was s-scared, I-I was confused, I was lo-lost, I-I felt like a.. like a burden', you choked out, hiding your face in hoseok's chest

'Wouldn't it h-have been much more better without me? You all coul-ld have done s-so much more as a boy group'

'You a-all would have to face less h-hate if I wasn't t-there'

'Your lives c-could have been better w-without me'

'Stop thinking like that!', yoongi snapped, his voice rising

'You're saying as if you never thought like that yoongi', you retorted

Yoongi's eyes darkened as he turned to you, you looked back at him sideways, madness filling your eyes but you stayed quiet

'I did. And I wish if I was a better person, I would have been able to be there for you'

'Stop blaming yourself! There was nothing you could have done!', you looked up from hoseok's chest

'Y/n-', namjoon started

'Well maybe if you had spoken up what was bothering you, you wouldn't have to take such harsh steps!' Yoongi hissed, getting up from the bed, cutting namjoon off

'Its not like that, yoongi-', you got up from hoseok's embrace, trying to calm yoongi down

'Then what is it like?! You hurt yourself! Do you know how hurt we felt knowing you weren't speaking up when something was bothering you even after all our tries?It made us feel like you didn't trust us anymore! How we felt when you d-distanced yourself? Why couldn't you just speak up? Why did you hide it in?', his voice cracked and he looked away as tears fell down his eyes

'I was scared!', you blutered out, your voice rising higher than yoongi's, tears filling your brims

You took a staggered breath and took off your shirt leaving you half naked

There was a series of sharp intakes of breath when the guys saw how skinny you had become

You ribs were almost clearly seen

You turned around, displaying the large scratch marks which, as everyone knew, was because of a cycle accident

'This...', you started

'My father used to punish me when I used to talk back or complain'

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