I wish I could look into those eyes and see the beautiful painted sky we're sitting under crystal chandeliers getting lost in the moment forgetting our fears you're all I ever wanted but you were like cancer and I didn't have the chemo I remember when you cried colorful tears that tore apart the sky like September storms your words are like smooth rain on my skin and I feel like I committed the ultimate sin losing you wasn't even the hardest part it was the fact that I was never going to get the chance to say I love you and show you what's really in my heart and I'm sorry I made things so hard but God damn I wish you weren't real because you make me not want to feel
this pain that you decided to deal is the reason I never healed sometimes the sun doesn't shine but when I think about the good times it brings a smile to my face and I begin to cry you were the reason I wanted to try and stay alive but in one night everything you said made me want to die sometimes I get high and I get lost in my feels lost in the memories of all the moments that I thought would last forever and felt so surreal I know I'm not the one for you and I know you're not the one for me but I hope you're okay and you find your way to your destiny and that someone gives you love with great intensity
I wish I didn't think about you and I'm sorry we don't talk anymore but it's not that I don't care I'll always love you but I can't be there but I know how it is and I accept this our bridge might have burned and our dreams may have died but I know we still feel each other on the inside I miss you I miss you I miss you so much I wish I could hold you one last time and feel the goosebumps from your sacred touch I miss you I miss you and my only wish is that I wish I could still be with you even though sometimes I hate you I miss you
