Save me , save you !

Volume two - intro

Shortly after Nour died ,Wahid found her old diaries and this is her version of their story !
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After my mother and sister passed away i kinda forgot how to "feel" , i was numb. They both died after a gas explosion, unfortunately my dad didn't die , he just lost half of his face, i know it seems kinda weird wishing my father's death but it's not! Because he killed them while slowly killing himself, my mom informed him so many times that the gas was leaking but he never believed her ( when he was young he hit his head and lost his sense of smell so he was never able to smell it ) and one time ,while he was dying for his morning cigarette, he pulled his lighter and the incident took place.
I was never a fan of reading, but i read a book like a million times , it's called a clockwork orange , it belonged to my mother and it was the only thing left after our house burned to the ground , so that's all what i have from my mother, and now I'm addicted to grape juice because it was my sister Amel's ( hope) favorite drink. So every day i grab a bottle of juice from the cafeteria and read my book in peace .
What i was actually into  was painting, it all started when i was a young girl , copying my mother who was talented and so supportive when she started noticing that I'm following her path , but i stopped a while ago ( shortly after she died) because i didn't even had the will to paint by myself.
making friends was never on the table, simply because i hated everyone and everyone hated me !
They hated me because according to them i was a " cold bitch " who cared about no one. And i hated them for saying things like that .
High school was boring , not just because i was good at school and never felt challenged, but also because no one was interesting enough for me
So when i saw this boy, i knew something is different about him ,
A- he loved grape juice which was interesting enough because no one beside me actually liked it
B- he was loved by girls but never really cared about them ( which also was weird because he's a boy in high school and didn't care about relationships even though for the teenagers our age, that's all what matters)
C- he was cute ...