𝙥𝙖𝙥𝙚𝙧 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙩𝙨 ༉‧₊ 𝙠𝙪𝙧𝙤𝙠𝙚𝙣

20 (end)

• kuroo's pov •

i gulped as i heard soft snores coming from beside me. i took in a deep breath, and put a hand over my mouth so i wont let out a squeal.

he's so fucking cute!!

he slept beside me. again.

okay tetsurou, calm down. this isn't good for your heart.

i took in a deep breath again.

how did things turn out in my favour? i thought i'll always stay on the sidelines and watch him be happy with someone else.

i let out a small chuckle.

i'm such a coward.

life is... weird. things take unexpected turns. but i guess it makes you happy too. maybe it means something different for everyone. of course it's not the same for everyone.

if i'm being honest, i don't really know what happiness actually is. but when i look at kenma and gives me his subtle smile, when i tease him and he gets flustered, when he shows a confident side of himself and says what he truly wants to, my heart flutters, and though i still do not exactly know what that is, i'd like to think of it as happiness.

because i've never felt this way before. bet yet again i haven't exactly felt happy either. so this foreign feeling he gives me - i'd like to name it happiness.

that's right, kenma is my happiness.

a soft knock on the door pulled me out of my train of thoughts. i slowly removed his head from my arm and got up, making sure not to make any loud noise.

i tiptoed my way towards the door and unlocked it silently before opening it.

as expected, there stood his mom. she gave a small smile which i returned.

"can i talk to you for a bit, tetsurou-kun?" she asked.

i could feel the tension in the air but i just gulped and nodded.

"sure," i smiled.

"does a cup of coffee sound good?" she asked and i nodded quickly. she smiled as she walked off, me following behind her. she told me to wait on the sofa in the tv lounge and i sat down as i was told, waiting impatiently.

is she about to ask me what i was doing with kenma and locked the door?

probably yes.

i gulped as i tried to curb the nerves that had taken control of my insides and set my heart beat racing. after a few more minutes of me biting down on my nails as i waited for her, she finally arrived with two mugs of coffee in her hands.

she handed me one of them as she sat down on the sofa. i gave her a small nod and mumbled a polite thank you. there was silence after that as we both sipped on our coffee.

the tension in the air was so thick that one could cut it with a knife if they wanted to. when i couldn't take the silence and awkwardness anymore, i decided to speak up.

"... u-um, the door of kenma's room- actually i just locked it because, uh, well he was taking a nap and i didn't want-" she cut me off.

"tetsurou-kun," she started. "kenma has always been very... vulnerable."

"huh?" i stopped fidgeting.

"ever since he was a kid, kenma would never warm up to anyone at all," she looked down at her mug. "but when he met you, tetsurou-kun, he warmed up to you very easily," she looked up at me with a sad smile.