And for all the boys I liked before

CHAPTER 3: Ivee

John Ivian Claude Legaspi 

Ivee was my first crush during my high school days. What does he look like? Tall, dark, and not-that-handsome. His hair is like Kakashi's from Naruto. He always wears clothes na hindi nagmamatch yung mga kulay. Hindi ko alam kung siya din ba yung lalaking nakikita ko sa palengke but I see the resemblance. At some angles, kamukha nya din si JV. Maybe it is because of face shape and lips. We had little interactions on 7th grade because he's a kinda snobby not like my past crushes. Siya yung crush na gugustuhin mong suntukin. My friends even pushed us para lang magkaron kami ng interaction pero it didn't work. I am the class president and I was friends with Ivee's class president. I even made a fake excuse scenario with their class president, Claire, just so I could see him. Claire even warned me about him, but my pathetic ass didn't listen to her. And sometimes, she tells me stories about Ivee's mischievous acts. Some of my elementary friends na nakasama ko sa Math competitions enrolled in the same school as me. They told me that Ivee is their schoolmate and talagang makulit ang behavior nya. One time, binangga nya ko for no reason. And yeah it hurts pero 'pag galling sa kanya? Why nooort.

I forgotten my feelings for him easily kase sa batch namin, ang daming pogi and I deserve a better crush na namamansin. But again, mapaglaro ang tadhana. Kaklase ko siya sa isang subject when we were on 9th grade. I can't remember any interaction with him. All I know is he is annoying. And guess what? On the next school year, he became my classmate. Ang happy 'di ba? And I admit, isa din ako sa mga babaeng sumusulyap sa mga crush nila pag nagka-klase. Paano ba naman kasi? Ang gwapo nya talaga on that year. Nag-glow up talaga siya.  His side profile? IMMACULATE. He had a long-ass-already-curled eyelash and matangos na ilong. And I also see resemblance of the guy from afar who ghosted me lalo na nung binrush up nya yung buhok nya. One time, nakita nya yung mga portfolios ko with a not so common fonts na print out na pang fill-up sa name, section, subject and teacher.

"Uy, gusto ko din nyan. Pag-gawa mo nga ko" he said.

"Okay. Sure" I said and just agreed on what he wanted I even printed it.

Wala naman syang sinabing font na gusto nya. He just wants like mine pero iniba ko yung font ayokong isipin ng iba na may something samin. And most of the time, nagtatanong din sya sakin ng mga schoolworks. Madalas ko syang makagroup sa mga subjects since halos magkalapit lang yung mga surnames namin. We were good that time. Siguro nakalimutan nya na crush ko sya 3 years ago.

There is this time na we have to migrate temporarily for two days sa kabilang building. We have an assignment in Arts which requires a camera so hiniram ko yung camera ng friend ko from lower year. So, nung nasakin na yung camera, nag picturan na kaming magkklase. And guess what? Nagkaron kami ng picture ni Ivee na parang walang kaming cringe moments three years ago.

There are times din na she allegedly dated my friend, but at that time my friend is dating Aljon, one of our classmates. So, di sila okay for almost a month. Hindi sila nagpapansinan. That time gusto ko kampihan si Ivee kaso mali sya. This year, I knew him better. His family issues, what does his mom call him, his soft spot, and how protective he is of her older sister. And that is what is like about him. Yes, he is far from perfect but madami syang traits na hindi mo makikita sa kanya when he is with his circle of friends. Yung traits na makikita mo pag kayong dalawa lang. Idagdag mo pa yung mga kwento sakin ni Pia, which is Ivee's best friend.

There are times na we are having our examination on English. Lumipat sya ng upuan in front of me just to ask answers. Feeling ko nga nakita kami ng teacher namin non eh. Pero nevermind... all I want for him is to at least get a passing grade. There are time na naka-group ko sya sa isang subject wherein we need to make a role play about LGBT. His role is the main lead and its gay role. I am the group leader. I made my role as a girl na mabubuntis nya kasi lasing kami. Oo, ganon ako ka-pathetic. While we are preparing, one of our groupmates asked Ivee.