Spy School dumb ships that nobody wants or will never happen

This has nothing to do with the story

But I'm really upset.

A reallly good author seems to hate my guts, and is being sooo mean to me because o said something as a joke. S/he told me to shut my face and that until I become a professional writer, stop criticizing.

Well, here is a message to you (not telling the name)

How bout u shut ur face instead? I don't care if I'm not the god of grammar. I don't care if you call me stupid things that don't make sense at all. So just shut your ugly face and leave me alone.

But here is the question for you.

Do you even hear yourself? You are saying cruel things like "IvE wRiTtEn 8 bOoKs" Well guess what? NOBODY CARES. I've written five, and I know I'm not Shakespeare or something, because I'm only 11. I don't have that much skill. I'm still young and I'm growing up. I know what I said was mean, but... look, I'm dealing with A LOT rn. My parents are getting divorced, my grandparents died, I'm very lonely person, School is hard and I barley get attention.

I can't possibly be the actual person I am. I am actually nice. I care about people. I make sure I'm healthy. But I'm going through so much dinghy now, I guess I just lost it.

I'm sorry, ok? Can you have the good heart I know you have to forgive me? I know what I did was wrong, and even though I'm on this emotional roller coaster, begging to just get off, can you forgive me?