While I'm sitting on the chair, I am smiling from ear to ear. I am here on our favorite place, a place where we became an official couple.
It's already 8 in the evening at nakalatag narin sa harap kong mesa ang mga pagkaing niluto ko kanina.
I cooked his favorite food, a fried chicken. And I also baked a mocha cake. I smiled when I read again the words that written on the cake.
‘Happy 1st Anniversary, Love!’
I put all my efforts and love just to make this cake because it is one of my gift to him.
Ken is my childhood friend. We both grew in the same environment. We cares each other and he is always protective to me.
Since Elementary, kami lang palagi ang magkasama. Sabay sa lahat ng ginagawa. At nung naging High School student na kami, syempre may nakikilala kaming mga bagong kaibigan.
He met his boy bestfriend, si Josh. Madalas narin naming kasama si Josh sa lahat ng ginagawa namin. They get more closer because they both have a skills in drawing.
And when we were on our grade eight, I met my bestfriend too. She is Kara. Para ko narin syang kapatid dahil sa sobrang closeness namin.
Sometimes, the four of us were gonna have a bonding but most of the time ay kami parin palagi ni Ken ang magkasama.
Simula palang, alam ko na na attracted na ako sa bestfriend ko. Well, sino ba namang hindi ma-aatract sa kanya kung yung mga mapupungay nyang mga mata ay tititig sayo. Yung perpekto nyang mukha ang palaging bubungad sayo. At bonus points pa dun ang pagiging matalino at talented nya.
Akala ko nga noon na hopia ako sa kanya, but who knows? Lumipas nalang ang mga taon na nililigawan nya na pala ako. At sa aaminin ko man o hindi, natatakot ako na sumugal dahil tulad sa mga pinoy-drama, baka ito pa ang makaka-sira sa pagkakaibigan namin.
But my heart still pounded for him at palagi ring sinasabi ng utak ko na baka magsisi ako sa huli kung hindi ako susugal. So, being in love will do anything. Sumugal ako, isinugal ko ang pagkakaibigan namin.
And last year lang, nung last week na namin bilang isang grade eleven student, I sweetly said my ‘yes’ on him.
We were so happy in that time at sa bilis lumipas ang mga buwan at araw, I am here right now, waiting him and we were gonna celebrate our first anniversary.
Napahikab ako ng yumakap sa akin ang malamig na hangin. Tumingin ako sa phone ko at dinialed uli ang number nya. I've been calling him for how many times but he didn't pick it up.
Tumingin ako sa wrist watch ko at pasado alas dyes na pala.
‘Maybe, he is on the middle of traffic or he have something important to do first.’
Pangungumbinsi ko sa sarili ko. Alam ko namang hindi nya malilimutan ang gabing ito dahil espesyal to sa amin. Again, I dialed his number but he still didn't answer it.
Napalunok ako ng biglang bumuhos ang malakas na ulan. Ken, where are you..
The fried chicken that I cooked was already cold. The cake that I baked was already melted. But I still do believe that he will come.
"C'mon, Love. Just come over here and I wouldn't care if you're too late" salita ko sa hangin.
My face were lightened up when my phone rang and his name is plastered on the screen. I immediately answered it.
"Love! I knew it! Nasaan ka na?" I chuckled a bit to erase this weird feelings that I felt right now.
"Go home"
I froze when I heard those two words from him.
"L-love? S-sinong kausap mo d-dyan?" I innocently ask.
He didn't response quickly. We both so silent for a couple of minute.
There's something come up on my head but I didn't mind it.
I heard his deep sigh
"Umuwi ka na. Hindi ako dadating dyan"
"W-what? Are you p-pranking me, Love? If yes, then you've succeed it." Tumawa ako ng mahina pero alam ko sa sarili ko na yung tawa ko ay may halong takot at kaba na.
"Let's... Let's end this. Go home"
Para akong binuhusan ng napaka-lamig na tubig sa narinig ko. Am I just dreaming? Kasi kung oo, gusto ko ng magising.
"A-ano bang pinagsasabi mo dyan, Ken. You're not funny anymore." I manage myself to say it clearly.
And I didn't know that my tears are already falling into my cheeks.
He didn't respond
"L-love, may nagawa ba akong mali? Kung meron man, s-sorry na... J-just don't do this to me.."
Hindi ganito ang inaasahan kong mangyayari. I thought we will share this special night with our love. I thought we will celebrate our first anniversary.
Kumawala na ang mga hikbi ko. Hindi ko mapigilan ang pag-iyak ko ng malakas.
"You're a smart person, Athena. So, hoping that you will easily get what I mean."
Mas lalo pa akong napaiyak sa narinig ko.
"N-no.. L-love, no!.."
I pleased but seems like destiny were really playful.
"We're over. Just accept it."
After those lines, he ended the call. He ended our connection. He ended my my dream with him. He ended our love for each other...
And he definitely broke my damn heart.
:(
