Shitty poetry by the lakeside

expectations.

expectations, 

expectations meets invitations

invitations to say yes

to show up

to enjoy it

to be someone, be somewhere, be sometime

be new

be cool

be you

be you

but not too much

not that much

be you

without the sad

without the guilt

without the jealousy

speak your mind

but only what they wanna hear

know whats going on

be aware

play an instrument

be an actor

study medicine

stay on top

of class

of the world

of your game

of the surface

dont drown

or do

do drown

but stay quiet

keep quiet

dont make a sound

dramaqueen

pick me, choose me

be quiet

not that quiet.

obvious quiet

no.

no. 

no. 

understand the assignment?

no?

then learn to. 

dont ask questions: be quiet

stay on the floor

convince your mom you're fine

for her sake

question your stand for the sake of your friends

do it for them

say yes

say yes to letting them control you

cry only at night

disappoint quietly

apologize

not too much

pick me, choose me

love yourself

not that much

the world doesn't evolve around you

your world does

shh

nobody else's world does

be quiet. 

remember what you are taught

be the best,

but shut the hell up about it

look forward

dont forget the moment

show off

dont brag

act cool

act fine

go to class

be friends with your enemies

locked in that room

you could just leave,

but no.

dont you dare. 

expectations

to grow up and get smart

study hard

work hard

earn 

eran a living

earn food

earn calories

count. 

count everything

keep track

run that extra mile

cry only at night

dont let them see you

lie. 

lie. 

convince your mom you're fine. 

lie. 

say you've already eaten

lie. 

tell them you're their friend

lie. 

tell her you're not mad anymore

lie to yourself

you're not hungry. 

you like school. 

meet their expectations

be happy.

smile. without teeth. 

smile. 

look happier

look healthier

look good. 

live in the moment

think forward

expectations

don't grow up

grow up. 

don't grow apart

stay for them

do it all for your mom

remember her smile

be quiet. 

cry only at night

meet their expectations

be you. 

but not too much

expectations kill. 

stay for your mom. 

convince her you're fine.