Bottom Todoroki Oneshots

Failure (MezoTodo)

Warnings: A Lot of Angst TvT, Suggestions of depression and suicidal thoughts.

Wow it's my first real published in a while I know this ship ain't that popular but I like it so I hope you enjoy it. I'm sorry if it's not that good.

Female Todoroki A.U. And Married A.U

(Credits to the original artist of the picture above)
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Bright blinding lights is all the dual haired woman could remember from the rollercoaster she found herself in since the day before.

A pain in her head and the numb empty feeling inside of her grew as she arose from her bed. She viewed down beside her and saw her lover sleeping with a look of worry.

She then looked outside the window near the bed in which they lay and watched the peaceful world outside with everyone being happy and carefree. A hand suddenly moved catching her attention as her lover decided to finally awaken from his slumber.

He quickly arises and sits up looking down at their hands that are now intertwined feeling the tension between them. He looked at the clock and dreaded his daily duties not wanting to leave his wife in her time of need.

But then again all she may need is some space. Space to clear her thoughts and maybe come to terms as to what she is feeling.

She has been quiet since the day before and as he tried to reach out to her and tell her everything was okay she was at a distance.

A wedge was starting to form between them and the certainty of their future grew hazier. He lamented the fact that he had to go to work so he decided to take the some time off but his agency would only give him a month off.

However throughout the month the tension did not disappear and no matter what he said she would just block him out listlessly staring off as if her life just ended and in a way it sort of did.

He could not put off work for to long and he hated it. He wanted to stay. Just a little bit longer. Because they need each other. Don't they?

With great hesitation the door finally closed as he left the apartment and the dual haired woman sat in silence for about an hour before dragging herself to the kitchen.

She stared at the refrigerator for awhile but none of the food seemed appetizing to her she didn't feel like eating or doing anything for that matter.

After closing the refrigerator she decided to head to the couch on the living room and turn on the tv. The news of today played with violence and happiness being displayed to her all at once but she was numb to it all.

An empty feeling now devoured her heart and the beating in her head made her exhausted. She got up to get a glass of water and took a few pain killers in which she stared at the bottle for awhile.

Negative thoughts started to enter her mind and for a moment she thought about committing to it. To kill herself... but the image of his face couldn't escape her mind either...

Why...

She shouldn't be feeling this way especially since he reassured her that things will still be okay but... she felt as if she had failed him... she failed the both of them...

She struggled walking toward the couch as she laid abruptly upon it, soft breathing and a steady heart. She tried to clear her mind of all things but it wouldn't go away and she was now trapped.

Her dreams betrayed her as they replayed the memory that was haunting her on repeat. Over... and over... and over... again... and again... and again...