"I'm sorry for everything I did, I didn't mean it" he said.
"But what about everything that happened between us" I asked. "What was that about?!"
"I wasn't thinking" he replied. "And I'm sorry but we will only be friends. Nothing more."
That was my breaking point.
It's been two years since I confessed my feelings for him. "Nothing will change between us" he said once I told him. Little did I know that everything would.
He's never had feelings for me but I was hopeful and thought that maybe he might see a future with me just like I imagined with him. I was wrong. I was always wrong.
At first it was awkward between us and I was upset that I had lost a friend. However as time passed, we got closer and closer.
My friends told me that he didn't actually feel the same way and was just using me. For what reason, I don't know he never explained it to me. After everything he did, he never gave me a good reason.
I knew he was just using me and my feelings, but I didn't care. They were my feelings and my memories and even if they were fake, they were precious to me. They were my all.
Two years have gone by since I told him. A few months have gone by since I last saw him. Since I last talked to him. And yet, even as I know now what he did and how it truly affected me, I'm not over him.
I still get butterflies just thinking about him. I dream about our future together and all the little things we will do if we were to get together. He's my favorite I love you, even if I haven't said it to him in person, but most importantly, he's my favorite what if.
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ESTÁS LEYENDO
Never going to be HER
No FicciónI'm currently writing out my feelings and life story because I have too many feelings to be let out. Please feel free to give advice or even roast me because... well once you read it, you'll know. This is the first time writing something so I apolog...