Through Fatal Silence

Chapter 32

Chapter 32

There's nothing wrong with what I'm doing. That's what I kept saying to myself to refrain my heart from feeling pity towards the man who abandoned us four years ago. I was happy in years that I was away from him and from all the people who lied to me. I could already tell that I was already fine without being hesitant, but right now, I feel unstable... I struggled to rebuild myself in four years, only to get wrecked again by just seeing him.

Pilit kong binuo ang sarili ko. Matagal bago ko nahanap muli ang sarili ko tapos sa isang iglap parang bumalik ulit ako sa pinaka umpisa nang makita si Paris. Ngayon, ang mga alaalang pilit kong tinapalan ay kumawala. Naging klaro muli sa isipan ko ang mga huling sandaling pagtatanong ko sa sarili ko.

"Stupid..." I was pertaining to myself.

I sighed heavily and leaned on the back of the chair. Now that he knows where I'm living, what should I do? Should I leave this place and find a new house? No, that would be hard for Rianne. Every decision, my daughter should be one of my considerations. I should never be impulsive that might affect her.

"Mommy, are you alright?" Naputol ang malalim kong pag-iisip nang magsalita si Rianne. Tumigil siya sa paglalaro at ngayon ay nasa tabi ko, nag-aalala. Kaagad naman akong ngumiti at ginulo ang buhok niya.

"Of course," I replied for her not to worry anymore. It seems that the frustration was being seen on my face; that's why she asked. I slightly leaned at her and tilted my head. "Rianne, about the man who's kneeling in front of you a while ago in the daycare. Did he say something to you?"

Naging malayo ang tingin nito sa akin na para bang inaalala niya ang lalaking nakaluhod kanina sa harapan niya at habang hinihintay ang sagot niya ay panay ang lunok ko.

"He's in a hurry kasi, Mommy, and then he bumped into me. He's busy looking at his phone and didn't see me, pero nag-sorry naman siya," she explained, which made me relieved. I thought Paris was there to see my child, but it turns out that he bumped into Rianne because he's in a rush.

"Okay. If you see that man, don't talk to him, okay?"

"Why, Mommy? Is he a bad guy?"

I plastered a smile. "I-I just don't want you to talk to strangers, anak."

I'm not doing something wrong... I don't want my daughter to get hurt. If taking my child away from her father was already considered a bad mother, how about the father who abandoned his family to be with someone else?

Bigla namang tumunog ang phone ko. Kinuha ko ito sa lamesa at tiningnan kung sino ang tumatawag. Nang makita ang pangalan ay hindi na ako nagkaroon ng pag-aalinlangan na sagutin ito.

"Hello, Yael," panimula ko.

"Daddy Ninong!" Rianne yelled with so much joy when I said Yael's name. "Mommy, let me talk with Daddy Ninong, please!" She begged with her tiny hands put together. She even pulled her trick of puppy eyes to please me.