kill me or love me (i don't mind) [eng translation] ◇ byeonghee/doyum (just b)

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bro, can't believe i actually ended up writting something (i was having a writer's block, sad), but here i am! it's not the best, but it's way better than my first try (it'll never see the light of the day, of course).

i love doyum and byeonghee together, what can i say (i also love 2jimin, they're cute~~).

as always, this is a work of fiction and have nothing to do with the real members, so if you don't like it, send the hate to me and not them, they have nothing to do with this<3

english is not my first language, so correct me if something is wrong! ^^

A new day meant once again having those intense eyes glued to the back of his neck, following him everywhere, as always. That new day also brought thousands of chills to his body, in addition to the fear in his veins thinking that he was in danger, once again. Chuji, his best friend, insisted that he was exaggerating, but Byeonghee couldn't quite understand why Jeon Doyum kept staring at him for long hours with his cold small eyes. He had already asked himself the question thousands of times, but he had never come to a more convincing conclusion than Doyum planning to murder him and then bury him in the school garden, because if not... What else? Jeon Doyum would never see him as anything other than a good subject to exterminate from the face of the Earth. Not even as a friend.

He and Doyum knew each other for as long as he could remember, literally. They spent a lot of time together in kindergarten, but they didn't even talk as much as their mothers wanted —they had always wanted them to be best friends, after all—. Then they were classmates in Middle School but split up in High School, Doyum being from class B and Byeonghee from class A. But even if they had shared an inhuman amount of time in the same environment, that didn't mean that they were close, although it did not mean the opposite either. Byeonghee had already been to Doyum's house, for example, along with Lim Jimin (another of his friends) to do a project in the last year of high school. In fact, he remembered everything perfectly: how Doyum was a kind but strange boy; he was also very submissive at times and so aggressive at others, plus he was easily embarrassed. He was adorable, to tell the truth, so much that Byeonghee left his house having counted at least five times in which Doyum's cheeks had caught on fire while he was talking to Byeonghee. God, he was precious and he awoke in Byeonghee a hidden desire to protect, but becoming closer with Doyum had been such an impossible task that he was unable to complete it, and after they were separated from class it was going to be even more illogical to approach him and try to be friends.

However, at the beginning of High School, Byeonghee had been aware that trying to be friends with someone could not be that difficult, thus he decided to approach Doyum to speak to him as soon as he found him among the crowd of students, but he only looked like a fish trying to breathe like a human being, moving his lips, trying to formulate a word, losing himself in the bright eyes of Jeon Doyum that looked in panic, until those same orbs disappeared from his visual space, because Doyum ran away from him because Byeonghee had seemed like a freak watching him without even being able to say a word.

The Byeonghee from a year prior could have said anything to Doyum, from a "Hello" to a silly joke to try and break the ice, but not even that Byeonghee could have dared to speak when he saw Jeon Doyum.

The first time Byeonghee saw him with different eyes was when Doyum was sixteen, and he felt so stupid that he wanted to be buried under the white tiles of his school.

The problem was that Doyum looked very different from how they had ended the previous year. Three months had changed Doyum in an exaggerated way, and Byeonghee wasn't really ready to look at him with the eyes of a boy who knows what he wants and what he likes. Only a blind man could ignore how beautiful Doyum looked.