Life lessons I could make a ted talk about but won't

A poem I wrote, a poem of hope and a lesson I am still learning.

Someday I'll wake up
And I'll never feel this bad
Someday I'll be able to wake up and be ok with who I am
Someday I'll be comfortable in my own skin
Someday I'll be able to talk to someone without responding to everything they say a certain way so they won't hate me
My point is
There exists room for human growth. And that growth is scaled by time and experience
And the fundamental truth is that I know understand and accept that I need to wait a little longer
But in times of uncertainty when the road in front of me is fogged over, when my legs hurt and there's a rock in my shoe it's hard to wait
I begin to question why if death is placed on my journey of experience anyhow why I can't just bring it forward manually
And there are reasons of course, family friends endless strains of aimless desires, but when one truly questions it's hard to say why we must persist through suffering
But we must of course persist. For the equal opposite reaction, we persist through our suffering to feel joy, and though it's out of sight, and we may be walking for longer than we want that equal opposite reaction is waiting
And though we as humans set our sights on those reactions attempting to plan them out we are unable to see what the future holds
Still we must walk even in blind faith
For the bad and the good that will follow

I chose this poem to share with you
As it was written in a time I was lying to myself everyday.
And I don't mean lying in a bad sense I was lying because I didn't believe the things I would say to myself. I didn't believe my depression was ever going to get better I didn't believe I would ever love myself or my body. I didn't think u would ever truly be liked for myself as a person. And day by day I said I would. Despite me beliving it to be a lie. And little by little day by day I changed. I got a little more confident, I showed myself a little more love. I started putting myself first. So I strongly believe in human growth because I've seen myself change. I'm not one to push my ideas onto you and if you disagree with my opinion I would appreciate your criticism. But if a part of you was a little like me back then and you're dissatisfied and insecure about a part of yourself. Tell yourself you love it, that you accept it, and one day you will. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel. Problems like conflict will repeat over the course of your life no matter what but remember so will your smiles. There will be cloudy can't days but there will be sunshine. There will be days when you hate yourself and one where you can feel you can rule the world. So long as you tell yourself you can there exists the possibility that you will. Thank you for reading.