You can kill me and I'll still give you another chance because I'm a genuine nice person but when i do something wrong I'm the bad person , you give up on me, but if you gave me hope and stayed I'll fix my mistakes and I'm sorry if i made you disappointed i just want to be wanted and special and first choice but it's not like that when a pretty girl does a mistake they find okay and able to forgive so if the most beautiful girl killed me you'll forgive her but if i killed someone you wouldn't forgive me, no one understands i try being this perfect person to be liked mentally and physically but i can't cause it so hard when you only have one chance, and i always fuck it up but when I'm mean you still hate me like I'm changing for you guys, to please you guys, and i shouldn't but i just want to be first choice that all i ask, like lets say you have to save between me and this girl from dying. you'll pick her i sure as hell know it wouldn't be me
Sorry
I’m so so sorry for not being a perfect
girlfriend
Boyfriend
Friend
Brother
Sister
Cousin
Daughter
Son
Dad
Mom
Student
But I wish I could try better which I am but I feel like I’m failing again. I really really don't wanna Lose you,you mean the whole world to me . but I see you way happier with someone else I'm glad they treat you better ig. As i try getting better or becoming the better person for other i come to a conclusion at the end of the day I'm also losing myself tryna please you.
Self
I lay my head on the glass window looking at the beautiful view wondering if i did good today, i thought to myself , 'would my younger self be proud of what i accomplished or would they be disappointed? i think again and wonder I'm i good friend, no i'm i good enough to be on this earth , thats the question, i don't like anyone asking if I'm okay but in the same time i do to see if they care i dont like reaching out with my problem because i don't want to bother people with mine but in the end Of the day everybody is a math problem and I'm the student to solve the problem then i got to refer my answer to make sure i made my answer correct
