"It's only just a crush, it'll go away
It's just like all the others it'll go away
Or maybe this is danger and he just don't know
You pray it all away but it continues to grow"Song: Tear you apart - She wants revenge.
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May 2019:
Sitting in this chair, surrounded by these red lights and that same music has my hands shaking in this basement.
I take a breath, looking up to the VHS camera in front of me and trying to speak before I let out a frustrated huff, "Uh... I don't really know what the fuck I'm doing. God this feels stupid. I don't know how to do this shit."
Maybe this idea was fucking stupid.
I tilt my head back and curse into the air, "No, fuck, I need to try. This is my choice. I have a choice."
I'm covered in sweat and feel like I want to rip my own skin off, but I keep thinking about how I felt in that pool. The power it felt like I had. The way Abby looked at me.
How proud she was.
How good I felt.
The memories. Focus on the memories.
Good memories.
My fingers rub at my eyes with my head pounding as I say, "But I should start this with the first night I don't want to forget."
I sit up in the chair, looking over my shoulder to the bathtub, feeling my stomach twist.
I exhale a long shaky breath before closing my eyes and facing towards the camera again, forcing myself to talk and trying to keep the memories in my mind that I want.
Not the nightmares I've had created in this place.
It's hard getting the words out, my voice is so tight with stress but I push myself.
"It all began in 2015. I was at my club... it was a regular night. But it's the night my life would change and I had no idea at the time."
My eyes start to open as I picture that night, and let it all come flooding back to me while I look up to the camera.
"I guess I should talk about the first night I met Abby..."
And the way I remember it...
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Year: 2015
"We've gotta leave in about half an hour."
Jimmy's loud voice yells over the heavy music, sitting next to me on the couch.
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