Lucky Me

Mom's House

AN: I was going to make you all wait a week for the next update, but you deserve it sooner than that...enjoy!

Chris' POV

"Where the hell are you man?!" Sebastian's voice hissed down the phone at me. I huffed as I sat back in the seat of my car, looking up at the house looming over me. "you haven't answered any of my calls or texts since Halloween dude! What the fuck is going on?!" he waisted no time in waiting for me to respond. I breathed out a sigh again before clearing my throat. "I'm at my mom's" I forced out. I felt like a permanent lump was stuck in my throat theses days. I didn't enjoy speaking to anyone, and if I did I usually just wanted to bawl out tears at them and I couldn't explain to them why. "Your mom's?" Sebastian's voice softened ever so slightly. "yeah..." I huffed, "is that where you've been for the last week?" he questioned. "no." I admitted, sinking into my seat a little, hoping mom didn't see my car and come out wondering where I was. I needed to get my shot together before I went inside.

"when I left Scottsdale I headed back home. I needed to just go. I'm sorry man. I never wanted to put you in the middle of all this" I admitted, ashamed of how I had been acting. "I talked with Scott. I locked myself up in my house with Dodger. I did anything I could to avoid everyone...." The guilt had already gotten a grip of me. "I did go see my doctor though. My anxiety has been out of control" I felt ashamed to admit it. "and then my Mom called. She wanted me to come see her." I sighed, "she knows something's up" I added. "how could she know though?" Sebastian asked, in a much milder manner. "she can't. No one other than you and Scott know. Mother's intuition I guess" I shrugged. "I am gonna talk to Lucy, I promise you that" I told him, "but first I just- I need my mom" I half chuckled, making Sebastian do the same. "Do what you gotta do man." He said gently. "but please dude, you gotta talk to Lucy soon. You know her first scan is in a week right?" he asked, but my face paled. "in a week?!" I blurted out, suddenly my heart started racing. "yeah, November 14th." he stated. "but she's got another appointment coming up before then. Not sure what that is though. She said she had some things she wanted to talk to the doctor about first" he said, sounding confused. I nodded. "Okay Seb. Thanks" I replied. "no problem. But I gotta say-" he continued, "I don't like telling you all this shit- it feels like I'm betraying her trust" he sighed, "I know. And I'm grateful of you telling me. But Seb" I felt my throat constricting again, "thank you for being there for her. I owe you everything" I felt the tears begin to fall. "It's nothing man. She's a great girl. And she needs you. Not me." he said, "they both do" he added. "now, go see your Mom. Call me later" he said before hanging up.

I took a deep breath as I looked up at the house. "Fuck." And I climbed out of the car....

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The door to my Mom's house opened abruptly as I raised my fist to knock on the door. I jumped at the unexpected happening but I was greeted by my mom's worried expression. "Christopher, what in the world is going on?" she asked me, her voice full of worry. And that was it. I broke down on her doorstep. "Oh sweetheart, come on" She wrapped her arms around my frame and carefully lead me into her home.

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The steam from the mug of hot chocolate drifted up to my face, hugging my skin with warmth as I cradled my favourite mug in my hands. Being here was always the most comforting place to be. This time of year especially. The month of November was a full on celebration of Thanksgiving in our home as kids. Mom would decorate the house, cook her special Thanksgiving meals on the run up to the big day itself and the house would smell amazing. Just cause we were now grown up, didn't mean it was any different.

A plate of warm brown chocolate chip cookies was slid in front of me onto the coffee table, and I looked up to find Mom sitting on the couch opposite me. "now Sweetheart, what on Earth is the matter? I've not heard from you in days." she said, looking worried. I sighed, smoothing my hair back. "I'm so sorry Mom!" I burst out crying. The next thing I knew was my mug was taken from my grasp and I was being pulled into my Mom's chest. "Oh honey...It's okay...." She cooed at me. But I shook my head as I sobbed like a child. "it's not Mom. I've done something awful." I cried, ashamed of what I had become. "honey, whatever you've done, I'm sure it can be fixed" she said, trying her best to comfort me but I shook my head. "I don't think that it can" I sobbed still, moving to sit up and wipe my eyes. "I don't know where to start" I said, rubbing my nose with the back of my hand. "just take a deep breath sweetie and take your time." she said soothingly. I nodded and took a deep breath before looking back up at her. "I'm gonna be a Dad, Mom"

Silence.

Mom just looked back at me, holding onto my hand, with the most unreadable look on her face.

Shit.

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"a-and then I just bolted. I-I left her there." I huffed, rubbing over my face with my palms. "alone?" Mom asked gently. But I shook my head, "no, her best friend, Charlie, and Seb were there with her." I said, still not being able to look my Mom in the eye. "Sebastian went over to hers and stayed with her all night while I was in the God damn airport wanting to get out of there as fast as I could." I frowned angrily. "I'm so sorry Ma" I sighed, sniffing back more tears. "It's not how you raised me to be" I sniffled. "Look at me Christopher." she said gently. So I raised my sore, red eyes to hers and saw nothing but disappointment- and that was even worse than the self loathing that I already felt.

"I'm not going to sit here and say this has been your finest moment; you know right from wrong, and how to treat the ones you love" she told me, "especially if you love her like you proport to do?" she questioned and I nodded my head so hard I felt my neck click and I winced. Jeez I was a wreck. "well then, you need to make this right. And honey, you need to be ready for a battle. This isn't something that some will be able to come back from" she warned. "But one thing she cannot do is stop you from seeing your child" she added. A new wave of nervousness hit me; I'd not even thought about her stopping me from being involved. What if she tried to? "I-I, um, I don't think Lucy would do that" I shook my head. "well honey, you need to be careful. You need to protect what's yours" she said with a knowing look. I nodded at her, grasping exactly what she was getting at. "but when all is said and done," she said, causing me to look back at her again, "I know you're going to be the best Daddy there ever was" she smiled gently at me. I laughed a little through the unshed tears in my eyes and pulled her to me for a hug. "I love you Mom"

"I love you too Cupcake"