𝐎𝐧𝐞 𝐈𝐧 𝐀 𝐌𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐨𝐧 | 𝐂𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐑𝐞𝐱

Chapter Nineteen: Therapy

Do Jedi need therapy? I don't know because no Jedi in history has needed it. So I wanted to know the reason why Padme was dragging me to a session during my time away from the frontlines. Following her into the weirdly calming room, she greets the therapist.

"Please sit, General." The blonde lady says. Padme sends me a smile and I inhale deeply. There was no point in arguing with this woman. Sitting down in the chair, I look up to my sister in law.

"I'll come to collect you in an hour." There is no point in trying to leave because I can guarantee Padme would bring the therapist to me.

"My name is Caroline and I assure you that I am trying to ease your mind." The young blonde was sincere. And I did want to ease my mind.

"How are you going to help me? A Jedi's way to peace is meditation." I did sound a little harsh but it was true.

"You may be a Jedi, General Skywalker but you are still human. Tell me, do you have trouble sleeping?" Though it's only been like five minutes. I liked her already. Padme had told me she was a nurse from Naboo and that's how she got me a therapist. Home connections.

"Some nights. Others I sleep like a baby." She nods and begins to write in her notebook.

"Any particular reason for the peaceful nights." Giving her a confused look, she smiles. "Does something happen before you sleep? Do you listen to a particular song for example." The only time I sleep peacefully is when someone is with me. Some nights Obi Wan, Anakin and I have a sleepover. Lately it's been Rex sleeping beside me.

"My brothers. We have sleepovers every now and then at my apartment." I couldn't exactly say my boyfriend. It goes against the Jedi Code.

"Being around family makes you feel safe? Comforted?" I nod. "Any other family?"

"The padawans and Senator Amidala. As well as my Master." She writes that down and I kinda hoped that she didn't write everything down. Caroline asked me questions regarding the war and I answered some. Others I didn't but she said that further in these sessions we'll cover each question more deeply.

"Do you have any nightmares regarding the war?" Nodding, the blonde smiles at me. "Can you tell me or do you not feel comfortable enough." My lack of response was enough to give her the answer. These sessions were scheduled twice a week but were flexible since I was fighting on the front lines.

Weeks passed and I've been opening up to Caroline. She was nice and helped me alot. When Rex is unable to sleep beside me, I do have peaceful nights because I've opened up about my troubles. We were mostly never in her office. She found that it would be better for me to enjoy the outside a little better. Being in a room was suffocating for me and she knew it.

Coruscant was a city. There weren't many places to go. Most days we sat in the courtyard of the Jedi Temple in a quiet corner. Obi-Wan had stumbled across us and was surprised that I had gotten a therapist. He was supportive and when I didn't have my talks with Caroline, he would talk to me. If we were paired together for assignments he'd make sure to check up on me. No one except Obi-Wan and Anakin knew I was seeing a therapist.

It was kept quiet for good reason. Not many Jedi have therapists so if word got out that I had one., questions would probably be asked. Especially by the Council. My brothers were always beside me and I loved them for it but I couldn't help but feel like a burden to them.

I felt like that I was their responsibility. They know I am fully capable of looking after myself yet they take time out of their day to check on me. Lately I haven't been able to have my usual talks with Caroline. The Separatists were making their moves and we needed to be able to keep up. I've had to cancel three sessions due to my role within the war.

My padawan Lloyd was tired. He was still only a child. The war front is not his place. His place should be within the Jedi Temple reading through the archives, training and playing games in the Courtyard. At this rate, we all needed therapy. We needed someone or something to ease our minds. To help us sleep at night.

"Sorry Caroline but I've got to cancel again. I've got an undercover assignment." I've cancelled four now. Four sessions and it really is having an effect. I could barely get four hours of sleep in. This war needed to end fast otherwise I might lose my mind.

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A short chapter but it's necessary. It has been a week since my last update and I'm trying to update at least once a week. Next chapter is much longer than this and let's just say elegant_jedi does not like it when I tease her. [Love you Heather <33333] 

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