I dont even know what my life is.anymore....when I was little I had more friends than I could name, now im basically a loser....I was best friends with my cousin and saw here and her sisters and mom everyday, now im lucky to see them once every two months....I had Brandin and I was dumb and hurt him....I had Lenny and Xay and they are gone now...Dakota and I used to talk a lot and now he barely talks to me....I used to not care what people thought of me, and now its always in my mind....I miss my old life, the one where I was happy everyday, and things that happened didnt continue to make me sad the next day....and then Zayn just..ugh... I'm gonna die anyway, whats the difference if it happens now?....
