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sometimes the amount of effort won't result in the same amount of achievement. don't feel like you are not good enough. feel like you've done enough and accept that you've tried, you worked hard, and you deserved something that couldn't quite be.

countless hours of dedication
sweat, blood, and tears
all of the ugly and all of the dirt
i stood at my peak.

on top of the mountain called dreams and goals
i felt the warmth of the sun
standing in its spotlight.

it doesn't last long
somewhere somehow
someone was always better than me
and at the top of the mountain
i was dragged away.

somewhere somehow
someone will always be better.

maybe it's god given talent
that hard work can never beat
or maybe it's simply not just enough effort
and concentrated dedication.
maybe it's me
not pouring my heart into it,
not enough sweat, blood, or tears satisfying
my endless drive.

I say it motivates me even more
but the nagging feeling at the back of mind
can't help but feel like I will
never be at that peak again.
it's pounding and pulsating
to remind me that
my feet will always be glued to rock bottom.

where can I find the energy to keep on going if I know I will never be good enough?

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