Chapter 7: 𝒫𝓇𝑜𝒷𝓁𝑒𝓂𝓈 𝒜𝓇𝑒 𝒥𝓊𝓈𝓉 𝒫𝓇𝑜𝒷𝓁𝑒𝓂𝓈
Selene's P.O.V.
"Does everything, going in the process? Are you getting healthy?" I nodded.
That's why I am here to get healed and cured. Pero parang hindi naman ganoon ang nangyayari, hindi naman ganon ang dumadalaw sa'kin.
"Yes, mom. I'm alright," I smiled before she gave me a head tap. "Where have you been?"
"Hmm... Paris, I'm going back there next week." She smiled sadly. "Business matter,"
Kahit na paalis-alis siya ng bansa, palayo ng palayo sa'kin. I can still feel her-nor not. Still lonely when she's a far.
Parang hindi ako si Selene kapag wala siya.
The cold breeze of night touches our skin when the wind blows. Mom slightly hug herself, while her eyes still on the city lights.
We're standing, at the hospital's rooftop, she just want to talk to me to say that she's leaving again.
Everything is good, everything is fine when she's here-everything gets worse when she's not here.
"When are you coming back?" I also snaked my arms around myself, it's getting cold but it's alright.
I felt the warmth of night when she's here by my side.
I gulped thinking that she's leaving for long again. I don't know what do I feel when she's not around. And I also don't know what will I do to make her stay.
"I don't know, it depends." She sighed. "Your Dad,"
"Hmm?" I look at her when she suddenly mentioned my father. She sighed and close her eyes.
"He's... cold." She looks at me and smiled.
"Why? What?" I spat.
"I don't know, Selene. But he's-I think I don't know him anymore..." She bowed her head, I never seen her like this.
"What do you mean mom?" Nilapitan ko siya at hinawakan ang kamay niya, I squeeze it and she looks up.
"Hindi ko alam 'nak, but he's-he's away... ang layo na niya."
"Hindi ko po kayo maintindihan,"
"Nevermind, just forget it." She looks at me. I gulped.
She suddenly changed the conversation, I can feel thay she's uncomfortable talking about it. Hindi ko siya maintindihan at hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko.
She's not open at all, she likes to keep her feelings hidden, so the people around her may think that she's strong and tough enough.
But when you look at her eyes, you may realized that you're wrong, she's not not strong enough-she's sad.
I used to blame myself all the time, because if I'm not a brat, a stupid... child, I don't get accident, I won't get this heartache and she'll not be sad.
"Are you ok?" Nilapitan ko siya upang titigan ng maiigi.
She nodded at me. But her eyes saying that she is not.
"Sometimes, it's ok not to be ok, for yourself, your family." She sighed. "By the way, how's school?"
"Good, mom. Our foundation day just ended." I smile.
If someone hits you a stone, just smile, that's a will of change.
"Is that so? Hmm, that's good."
Kinalas niya ang pagkahawak ng kamay ko sa kamay niya at inakbayan ako. "Let's get going?"
