original songs

you think i chose this?

do you think i chose to be this way?

with all this depression, OCD and anxiety?

don't you think I hear the whispers? the rumours?

don't you think i hear the names? the taunts? the threats?

i bet you don't even care if i do

don't you think I wish for this to end?

no, this isn't me...

this is not who i used to be...

i used to be carefree

until you took that away with your words and your mind games

sticks and stones break my bones, maybe words don't do that but they still hurt... a lot

are you ashamed? do you care?

no

you probably don't even remember me

but i guess that's the way it goes...

right?

wrong!

well, it should be wrong...

it should.

but it's not

it ain't wrong

you will never understand what you put me through,

probably don't even know who i'm talking to but

it's you

all of you

all of you played a role in pulling apart a little girls heart

and breaking her

piece by piece

do you feel even a little guilt? a little regret?

no

now im just the shell of the girl that i used to be

i wish you'd open your fucking eyes and see

what you've done-

what you've really done

do you think these scars on my skin appeared on their own?

do you realise i dont feel at home... anywhere?

no

do you care?

no

coz you are selfish

all of you-

everyone-

is selfish

every. single. one. of. you.

i hope you're happy now

now that the girl i used to be is gone.

im all alone in this world

noone understands

i have never fit in

im not from here

im a freak.

a depressed, anxious freak

a freak...

goodbye...