Got somebody to love...

Chapter 6

Authors pov

Both gautam and Shiva looked at each other and smiled..
Gautam - tu bol pehle kya baat ha.?

Shiva diverted his gaze from his brother and spoke..

Shiva - bht kuch badal gaya ha gaumbi..
Kuch theek krne jata hu toh aur bikhar jata ha..
Kya karu mai ?

Gautam looked at shiva , and a smile formed his lips..

He was Happy that finally shiva was realising that he needs to do something..

Gautam - shiva , kabhi koi cheez itni nhi bikharti ki use Sameta naa jaa ske..
Main janta hu tu kis baare main baat kr rha ha is liye bol rha hu.. Aabhi bhi bht kuch ha jo bikhra nhi ha..

Shiva - aagr ha toh dekh Kyu nhi rha ha gaumbi mujhe..

Gautam - kyuki pehle toh gusse main tha aur aab guilt main ha..
Pehle teri ankho ke aage gussa chaya tha , zid chai thi aur aab jb tu kahi na kahi ye dekh rha ha ki tune jo kiya ,jo soch ke kiya wo hua hi nhi aur tujhe hakikat dekh rhi ha toh aab guilt chai ha.. Shiva zaroori nhi ha ki hum har baar sahi hi ho..
Main nhi janta tune itna kuch kyu kiya ,kya wajah thi pr itna zaroor pata ha ki jo bhi wajah thi wo kamyab nhi hui ha..
Main jnta hu tu pyaar krta ha Raavi se..

Shiva looked at gautam shocked , while gautam gave him a smile and said

Gautam - Aisa kya dekh rha ha bhai hu tera aur main kya pura ghar jnta ha ye baat aab..
Shiva main nhi jnata tune kyu kiya wo sb.. Jisse pyaar krta ha usse hi itna hurt kiya Kyu akhir..
Pr main ye zaroor janta hu ki tu wo sb sudhara chatah ha..

Shiva nodded his head while a tear escaped his eyes..

Both again went silent..
While Shiva kept thinking , gautam gave him the time to think..

They both again stood in silence when shiva said

Shiva - gaumbi jb aap galti krte ho toh maafi kaise mangte ho..?

Gautam smiled at him and turned around supporting his back on the railing..

Gautam - jb mai. Galat hota hu toh bas dil se maafi mangta hu..
Mujhe itne salo main ye samajh aaya ha ki agar aap kisi ke samne apna dil khol ke rakh dete ha..
Apne dil ke jazbat ko bina kisi filter ke ek aaine ke jaise samne wale ko dekhte ha toh wo usse smaajh jata ha..
Tune raavi ko bht hurt kiya h and I know usne bhi bht hurt kiya ha.. And sach kahu toh tum dono ki 90% takleef is wajha se thi ki tumne kabhi bhi ek dusre ko apne dil ki baat batai hi nhi...
Maafi mangna bht badi cheez hoti ha shiva pr usse bhi zyada badi cheez hoti ha galti realise krna..
Tujhe agar apni galti realise ho.gai ha toh aadhi Jung toh tu jeet chuka ha na..

Maafi ye soch ke nhi mangte ha ki samne wala maaf karega ki nhi.
Maafi dil se mangte ha bina kisi umeed ke..
Saaf dil se , apne dil ki baat usse samjhayega toh duniya ki koi bhi cheez usse tujhe samajhne se nhi rok payegi..
Tujhe agar lg rha ha ki tune raavi ka dil dukhaya ha usse takleef di ha toh , us ki bharpai kar aab..
Ussi jitni takleef di ha usse zyada pyaar de , usse aaj tk samjha nhi ha toh aab usse samajh.. Uska haath jhatka ha toh aab uska haat tham aur aisa tham ki kuch bhi ho jaiye wo haath naa chute..

Tu sb sudhara chatha ha ,sb theek krna chatha ha toh bas ek change de , aage bad... Tu ek Kadam le shiva aur phir dekhna sb khud ba khud hi clear hota jaiyega..
Hum insaan hamesha apna pyaar chupate ha pr narazgi wo nhi.. Aur aachi baat bhi ha narazgi chupani nhi chaiyea agar gussa ha toh bata do , narazgi ha toh jata do.. Aur dekha jaiye toh log sahi khethe ha pyaar batane wali cheez nhi ha.. Aap kisi se kitna pyaar krte ha ye cheez dekh jati ha apki ankho main apke actions mai.. Pr kabhi kabhi pyaar krte ha toh bata dena chaiyea kyuki usse samne wale ko aacha feel hota ha..
Main jnta hu tu expressive nhi ha aur main kahungi bhi nhi ki tu raavi ko hamesh I love you bol , mat bol hamesha, pr hamesha kuch aisa kr Jisse usse Samjah aa jaiye ki tu usse kitna pyaar krta ha ,  haa kabhi kabhi usse wo shabd bol de taki usse wo shad sunke sukoon mil sake..
Hum kitni baar I love you bolte ha wo matter nhi krta ha.. Hum kitna usse mean krte ha bina bole bhi wo matter krta ha...