Do you ever just feel not?
Like not sad, not depressed, happy, simply just not.
Its almost better than feeling everthing but worse than feeling nothing
Because you could feel something, you're just... not
You can't really smile, you can't cry, you can't even fake cry.
Few, very few notice, only one has noticed so far.
And it's, belived, because of one person.
Not O N L Y because of that one person, rather, the leading up to that thing to happen to and with that one person.
It would be much prefered to simply... cry and get over it, though it is not that you cannot simply get over it.
To do that you'd have you feel and I... simply not.
And you want to know things aren't and won't be shit forever, and yet. Here. we. are.
Wishing things didn't turn out like that, wishing you didn't drift away.
Loosing sight of what kept you not in the not.
Hoping one day you'll learn not to leave because you got a... vibe.
A vibe that told you they didnt care anymore, a voice telling you everyone leaves you eventually so why not save yourself the heartbreak and leave first.
Only to be left
heartbroken.
