i don't know why but i'm getting this feeling again.
it may have to do with the leaves falling to their deaths or the sky being bleak and cold
i have lost control yet it's somehow comforting
i've felt this before, it's nostalgic and warm. this feeling of futile life, and staring at a blank wall just mindless. i know it's not good for me, but i can't stop the joy in familiarity that i feel when i feel it rush through me.
so yes, I don't know what this feeling is but I welcome it.
i welcome the cold tears that run down my face, spilling out of my glossy eyes as I listen to yet another sad song.
i welcome not caring; about anyone or anything.
i welcome this emptiness, because it feels familiar and safe.
i welcome this winter feeling, however bleak and cold it may be, for it fills me with empty warmth fueling a fire in my heart
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hey guys this is just like a little excerpt from how i have been feeling lately!! i think #seasonaldepression has been getting to me laugh out loud! sorry it's short and sorry i haven't updated anything in a while (the aforementioned stress is not letting me get a lot of things done). i love anyone who reads this!! <33
