(an extract from my diary 25/11) ༄
he was a dream to me in my reality
became a nightmare in my thoughts.
my heart is bleeding and,
every single day is an ordeal
i feel so alone now that he's gone.
needing attention so bad , can't give myself one because i'm already attached to the idea of having his.
im losing this battle and no one is here to save me.
i need someone to hug me tight , whispering to my ears « it's gonna be okay, i'm here and i'm going nowhere »
i wish he loved me
i wish he kept holding on to me
i wish he stopped playing with my heart
i wish i heard apologies from all these people who broke my heart to the point that i couldn't stop my depression from coming back.
