i always thought we would stick together
you and me, for the eternity
i always thought i would love you till this world falls apart
but now you've changed
and i hate you for that
'cause it feels like my home has changed
i remember those times
you hugged me and made me feel like there was nothing wrong with me
that felt like home,
that felt like the affection that i've never gotten, that i craved without even knowing
and i act like i don't even care
but when everyone goes away
i miss you,
i miss you more than i miss my mother
'cause you made me feel like i'm home
now you've changed
and i hate you for that
i hate seeing your crying face
and i hate to see your figure, walking away from me
i feel abandoned, left alone, as if an ugly earthquake has come and teared my home down
i hate that earthquake
and i also hate you
but what i hate the most is
that i want to be your friend for ten more minutes
so that you could hug me,
we could say our goodbyes,
i would feel what being home feels like
for the very last time
but my home has been teared down
but i still wish,
and i hate myself for it
more than i could ever hate you
'cause i trusted you
even though you broke the spell
i'm the one to blame for creating it in the first place
i blame that damn earthquake the most
but you could protect us both
but you were so fragile
and i blame you for that
but i also blame myself, why didn't i run away?
then i blame the earthquake
but there's no one to blame
at the end of the day,
i still hate you
