japanese denim | s.acosta

chapter four

blah blah blah . teacher talking . teacher yelling . i want to cry . i want to go home . i just want seth to talk to me .

seth

hi wyd !

the same thing as u . class ?

we never really got to finish our conversation . do you think we can talk during lunch ?

i was gonna skate .

oh okay that's fine no worries !

but maybe i can drive u home ?

yeah sure sounds good !

seth driving me home ? seth driving me home ! i put my books and binder away into my bag and threw it over my shoulder waiting for the bell to ring to be dismissed to lunch .

i already knew where i was going to hang out . in the quad to see seth skate . like he usually does . same place . every day .

2000 r&b , love , or rap playlist ? hard to pick from . as i was contemplating i felt a hard grip around my bicep . it stung . i spun around . mitchell .

"get the hell off of me !" i yelled . trying to sound strong but it came off as more afraid . we got a couple glances from the other students in the hallway .

thankfully he let go of his grip and put his hands up on defense .

"woah calm down ! you weren't the person i was looking for ." he laughed . yeah right . i wasn't afraid since jay was standing next to him . "but since i got your attention . come over tonight ? i have a surprise ."

which as expected caused the two to laugh before they walked off . enough to make me break down .

i took a deep breath . don't cry . don't cry . kind of suctioning my tears back inside my tear ducts . i felt a light tap on my shoulder .

"you okay ?" vivian asked .

no i'm not . i'm not okay . why am i lying ?"oh yeah ! i'm great ." i smiled softly at her . trying to reassure her .

"i'm sure you know this . just ignore mitchell . he's annoying but harmless ." she laughed .

harmless huh ? harmless ? that's a new word for mitchell .

"oh okay . yeah thanks ." thanks for nothing . once i again i gave her a quick smile before making my way to the quad .

i found an empty seat and opened my bag to see if i had anything to eat . and surprisingly i did . i opened the brown paper bag signed by my dad that contained a turkey sandwich, lays, a fruit roll up, a caprisun, and a cookie .

your favorite . just like old times . maybe after school we can go to the ice cream shop . text me when you eat your lunch .
-love papa

was written on a napkin . just like old times .

papa <3

i love u papa . thank u .

Of course my love ! ice cream after school today ? make it like the real old days ? talk about what's been going on in the smart brain of yours ?

yes of course . see u later !

no matter how hard life is . kicking me in the stomach even when i'm on the ground . my dad can never fail to put a smile on my face . ever .

i opened the sandwhich and the bag of chips and threw the chips in the sandwich before closing it . just like olds days .

it brought me back . crying because i had forgotten my lunch at home and no one was answering . riley my bestfriend in kinder split her sandwich with me . soon becoming my new favorite sandwich . crying because riley moved to new hampshire in the 5th grade . i miss riley . or is this type of sandwich just very meaningful ?

"what are you eating ?" a familiar voice asked as he took a seat next to me . seth .

"a turkey sandwich with lays ." i smiled at the thought . i held it in front of me . "you want a bite ?"

he smiled cheekily as he took a bite . as he was digesting he made a surprised face .

"pretty good jules ." he gently wiped his bottom lip .

i smiled as i took another bite . "what happened to skating ?"

"i got tired . it's hot . if this seats taken i can just go ." he said as he was starting to get up .

"it's not ." i gently pulled him back down next to me.

we looked into each other's eyes . almost like a staring contest . yet more intimate ? i couldn't take it . it felt like he was able to see right through me . i looked back at my hands .

"your really pretty ." he complimented as he pushed my hair behind my shoulder and ear . "dont hide behind your hair ."

"oh thank you ." was all i could say .

the bell rang . we were finally having a moment .

"meet me at the student parking lot after school ?"

"yeah." i smiled .

before meeting seth i ran to the bathroom to get cleaned up . i fixed my hair . sprayed some perfume and applied some lip gloss .

"perfect ."