I am terrified,
the days merge together, it is an infinite stretch of
you
I am unfocused, my mind fogs up and my desperation wraps thick arms around me
I am undeniably obsessed with you
please forgive me
when I am feverishly pressing my lips against tattered pages
breathing love and your name and all that I have come to know of you
when I rewind the same songs over and over again
even if you will be beside me finally
please, forgive me
when I hold on tighter- longer, than you expected
and my writing nights of you drag like a last cigarette
and the smoke hogs your space
and my eyes cannot glance away
please, forgive me
I am undeniably obsessed with you
I shall overthink, over love, and torment my heart as I mock every pulse for interrupting the vowels you speak
so, please forgive me on the days I become too much, and my words might fall into a tedious loop and my arms shall remain restless with you here
holding your hand, kissing your knuckles
caressing your existence with devotion
and drowning you with naive affection
please
forgive me,
I just want to give you the love I never had
