"user not found" is what it said when I went to see your account that night when you took longer than usual to reply to my message
"Is this a mistake?" "Did you mean to restrict me?" "Was it something I said?" "Something I did?"
The questions that filled my head I wanted to reach out to you that night but waited til the next day on another account instead
The next afternoon came sending that message to you is the first thing I do
I let you know that I won't get mad at whatever you say I just didn't want to lose my best friend that day
I wait and I wait stomach in a knot wondering if all this was worth it or not
After waiting for what feels like forever you finally see it I jump with a gasp hoping you'll finally explain only to see your account again and experience that same pain
"user not found" ditto as my main my heart sunk to the floor my tears fell like rain
How could someone I called a best friend do me like that? 5 days before our 1 year anniversary at that
Someone I was there for around that time last year when they weren't feeling their best ranting to me about their ex one day then gone the next
359 days gone out the window
Now I'm left wondering what did I do to you?
Funny how last week you said you'd never leave then the following week you left me to grieve
All alone with no best friend but with memories I wish I could forget instead
But in that same time during my sadness I wondered how could you do this to someone you said with your chest was your friend? Someone you said you loved with your whole heart?
The days and time I spent getting to know you calling you my best friend telling everyone I possibly could about you just for you to up and go like a rolling stone
The way you did it so nonchalantly gives me reason to suspect I'm not the first nor will I be the last to fall victim to your careless act
I wonder how many other people you've done this to
Some days I sit around hoping you'll come back
Even if it's just for a second just so I can tell you
I miss you.
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Tales From A Litte Girl In A Big World
PoetryFrom random to serious, love, and heartbreak. These poems have just about all of it, some of which are written from personal experience, and others were written just for fun, either way, these are tales from a little girl, in a big world.
