losing you wasn't just painful, it was damaging also. it wasn't me just sitting down on a couch surrounded by my friends as we watched movies and ate food to try and forget you. it was me staying up until 4 in the morning because the thought of you was so strong i couldn't even close my eyes without seeing your face. it was me swallowing thickly and blinking back tears every time i was in public, the hole in my chest causing my breaths to come out shaky rather than normal. it was me laughing at things for no reason as my stomach turned because the urge of falling apart was getting stronger. it was me crying at random hours during the day and me not wanting to get up out of bed... it was me deleting our conversations and regretting it because now i couldn't know where we had went wrong. it hurt. losing you hurt and i wasn't ever able to forget that kind of pain.
YOU ARE READING
her.
Romanceyeah uh, this is pretty self explanatory lol i really hope she reads this but i'm not sure these are just things i've written about her in my notes
