our journey together part forty-two

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It's been a few weeks since our vacation to Disney world Stef's return back to work. Me and the girls have
Taken trips to the beach and zoo
The weather was still pretty hot
On off days we venture to the park
For picnics and other times
I worked on the garden in front
While Francesca and Landon had their afternoon naps. I always made sure to keep the baby monitors close by, Stef's been working harder than usual these past few weeks, schools
A month away from opening soon
Next week is open house and l'll have to leave the kids for the first time since they were kidnapped a while back. The thought of it scares me the death, l know l can't shield them forever. There still babies and they fend for themselves yet, l still struggle with anxiety attacks from time to time
Since moving to southern California
I feel a little at ease than before
Sometimes I find it hard to let my guard down and be completely vulnerable with Stef. There are things
I've kept hidden from her, deep down inside l know she will never hurt me
She's giving me the life l've always dreamed of. And when we make love
I don't feel forced, l'm completely in control of what's happening. My father's abuse left me feeling insecure
I see the way women look at Stef when where out in public. I need to sit down and tell her how l feel,

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