sapnotfound- frienemies (oneshots as well)

chapter 22

//ehehe i just disappeared for a few days, heh. that was very uncalled for, but ive really just been procrastinating, but its fineeeeeee. but uh apparently ranboo's in the UK?? idk what i missed on twitter but whatever. this maybe a short chapter though, im not sure yet. anygays lets go -sincerely, alex <3

//update: its like 3 days later and im still trying to write, anyways onwards we go <3 edited: jan 22

//TW: cursing, 

/wednesday (19th) 1am, dreams car/

                                      the brunettes hair was a mess as the raven was half asleep and flirting with him. though they were dating, sapnap usually tended to flirt drunkenly acting as if they werent dating already. it was funny and adorable to george. once they arrived back to their  dorm, george thanks dream real quick then pick sapnap up, carrying him inside "mm im hUngry" sapnap mumbled "you can eat when you wake up love" george responded making sapnap whine as he was set and tucked into his bed

 "better sleep, we have classes in the morning"  "stay here" the raven whined more "i cant, i-" "fuck your bed" george laughed at the response and laid down next to sapnap, wrapping his arms around the shorters waist "goodnight love.." was all that was heard before the room went mostly quiet except for sapnaps soft snores. george had always loved sapnaps small soft snores, it was something that he could fall asleep to. 

after a few hours george felt the other move around. it seemed as if he had trouble sleeping "love? is everything alright?" george asked tiredly as sapnap turned around and balled up towards george, holding onto him tightly "love, whats wrong?" he asked, very worried at this point. he felt his shirt becoming wet and sapnaps breathing went in and out, very out of control

 "sap? sap, hey, hey, you got to tell me whats going on" sapnap sniffled and looked up at george before his eyes filled with tears again "i- i- bad dream.." "aw love, what was it about?" "you- dream.. but you l-left me.." george eyebrows furrowed,  and shook his head no "no, that isnt real, im right here. dream cant do anything to take me away from you. i promise you" 

god, if only those promises werent half filled, with lies, and secrets

sapnap nodded sniffling again, digging his head into the brunettes chest. he soon started calming down and falling back asleep. the brit sighed quietly as he didnt know how much longer he could hold these in before sapnap would eventually find out. it was horrifying holding secrets against someone who ACTUALLY cared for you. especially sapnap. though he had been having issues with his mood switches, but even though he's still had those problems, he's always been there for george. no matter what happened

/thursday, 12pm,  lunch/

                                                 george sighed as he picked at his lunch. sapnap wasnt even there yet. probably in the bathroom was his best guess. he then heard someone say something but he was too caught up in his thoughts "george! buddy, you good?" quackity asked sitting next to him. it was the usual group at lunch. dream, george, techno and quackity (sometimes) and sapnap. dream looked at george with a small glare before going back to talking with techno. george huffed and nodded "yeah.. im fine" quackity nodded "alright, where's sapnap? anyone seen him?" techno shrugged and dream got up "ill go look for him!" "go with dream, gogs. it'll be a good idea" "what- why?" george was starting to get nervous "well, your sapnaps boyfriend, duh" george got up slowly "come on george" dream said with a smirk as him and dream left.

george fumbled with his hands while they started looking for sapnap "so. george. whats it like dating sapnap hm?" george looked at dream confused. why would he ask that. oh who is he kidding, of course he knew why "well.. hes adorable, and its just a nice relationship.. why?" "oh nothing.. you just shouldnt be with him, you guys are polar opposites.." "okay, thats just wrong. we are fine together" 

"oh george~"

the brunettes face went to confused as he was pulled in by his shirt collar 

"im never wrong." dream huffed pushing the brit away. he didnt know what was making the blonde act this way. he was always so supportive of their relationship, why be upset now. "sapnap!!" george said running up to him and jumping on him like a little koala. sapnap giggled and held him, as the brunettes arms were around the ravens neck, and legs around his waist/torso "i missed you" george mumbled, digging his face into sapnaps neck "i missed you too, darling" 

dream rolled his eyes, laughing slightly "do i not get a hug?" he said, which caused sapnap to scoff "yeah, join the hug" he spoke as dream walked up and wrapped his arms around the two. "this is nice.. now go" sapnap joked to which dream laughed a little "come back to lunch, ill meet y'all there" dream hummed before walking away, which left sapnap and george alone in the hallway 

"love, lets go back to lunch" "but i dont wanna, i wanna stay in your arms" george whined, which made the raven awe "awww, i know, but we can do that we do that, when we get to the dorms" "but-" "george.." "fine.." george let go and got down sighing

/friday, 2am, dorms/

                       george sat on his bed, with earbuds in, just thinking. thinking on everything he's ever done. some bad, some good. nothing out of the ordinary. except getting hurt while trying to keep up a stable relationship. it was a bit hard to understand everything going on his life. he was only 19, wasnt too young for dealing with... all this, but still it took a toll on him. he really wanted to stop with thoughts in his head, but he really couldn't. of course, he still wanted to be the person that was the people pleaser, and make things better, and fix everything, but he was slowly starting to realize that he cant do that. and that's okay. not everything can be fixed, not everything can be made better. 

/george's POV/

i decided to sit on the ground in my closet, and clean up some. since i couldnt fall asleep, why not clean up? as i was sorting through everything, i saw a box, maybe from a amazon box. strange.. i picked it up and looked at it, seeing its from dream. why would dream put a gift?? in my closet. i put it off to the side and continued cleaning up. my mind kept wondering back to the box, but i didnt go back and open it, though i did hope its nothing important? just then, i got a text from dream. rolling my eyes, i pick up my phone to see what he wants.

dream: hey, wyd

i sighed and ignored his text, playing my music again and getting back to cleaning. but my phone started going off with texts

dream: hello?
dream: dude, come on, i need to talk to you
dream: georgeeeeee
dream: istg if you dont answer me rn
dream: fine, i know you saw the box hm?
dream: open it, its not anything bad
read: 2:30am

/back to no ones POV/

why did he have to spam? god, he hated when people do that. he looked at the box, and sighed, picking it up. 'here goes nothing' he told himself, opening it. he looked through it, and took out everything in the box. immediately covered his mouth, feeling tears his cheeks. photos of things that he didnt even want to see. he felt embarrassed. a wave of different emotions came over him. anger, sadness, just anything..

//YEET MOTHER FUCKERS (sorry i love all of you) anyways thats done with for tonight. idk why that took so long.. maybe cause ive procrastinated for the past week or more. anyways thats that, uh hope you all had a great week, and having a great week :) have a great day/night, drink some water, take a shower, and get some good ass sleep. you all are doing so well, you are amazing, and you are loved. love- alex <3

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