A Second Chance

Chapter-1

Present

It's 2 am and I still can't sleep.I mean what the hell it has been four years and I still dream of him,why does he keep showing up in my dreams.We broke up four years ago and it was disastrous.He was my first love ,my everything at that point but then he broke my heart into pieces . Sometimes I wonder why I feel so intensely about him even after all these years .Most people move on but my heart just doesn't let me .It is still stuck on him and I am afraid it will always be like that ,stuck on him.There is something special about first loves ,they always hold a special place in your heart no matter what you do ,where you go they are always somewhere in you.Sometimes I wonder what he is upto,what he does in his free time,how is his life going on,does he miss me or has he moved on .Oh god ! I hate this ,I hate thinking about him like this ,I can't breathe when he shows up in my dreams,nights become heavier and I can't fall asleep anytime soon.On most days I am completely fine,do my day to day chores, attend high school,do assignments ,read books and life goes on but there are days like this one where he shows up in my dream and turns my life upside down exactly like he did five years ago.I know some people might wonder it has been four years just move on ,date someone carry on with your life but I wish it was that easy because I did dated someone after him but it turned out to be the worst decision ever .Most of the times I try to keep myself busy by reading a book , studying or doing something or the other but since high school is over now and we are all in quarantine due to coronavirus,I have a lot of time to think . Thoughts of him keep creeping into my mind making me all sad and breathless.Will I ever forget him?I don't know or maybe I should just text him and reconnect.Things are getting worse everywhere due to the virus and I can't help but worry about him .
Tvisha ! Tvisha ! get up it's ten in the morning!!For how long will you sleep,Get up! get up now! and just like that I wake up to my mom screaming at me.I can't help but wonder why my head feels so heavy perhaps because I slept late because I kept thinking about him.I get up ,make my bed and decide to take a shower,by the time I am out of the shower I make up my mind to text him .I guess it's time to reconnect.I have my breakfast and pick my phone and finally gather all my courage to type Hey ! How are you ? to him and hit the send button.