I Dare You.

(7) What's Really Up?

Lamari

"Trinity-"

"No shushhhhh. This is my way of apologizing for everything." I sighed as she stuck her head back under the cover and finished giving him the best head a nigga ever had. I missed this. I missed her mouth going crazy on my shit.

I was nutting minutes later right in her mouth. Shit, I told her to move but she insisted on staying so who am I to stop her?

"Lamari?"

"Hmmm?"

"I'm sorry I be acting all crazy and shit. I just - I don't know, I just don't want to lose you."

I nodded as I stared up at the ceiling, thinking about a million other things.

"It's cool, Trin we're good."

"You sure? You seem a little off."

"Nah I'm good, just thinking."

"You wanna talk about it?"

I looked at her. "Not really."

Truth was, Maharea was on my mind different. Last night after we ate, we went back to her crib and we did some things.

Nah fuck that, I fucked the shit out of her.

Shit was better than the first time. As soon as I nutted I knew I fucked up again. Makai and Von's face popped right back up in my head. Instead they had guns pointing to my head. I knew this had to stop but there was something about her that just made my dick go crazy. Now my dumbass was back talking with Trinity just because I thought she would take my mind off of things.

She didn't.

On top of that, me and my parents got into another argument. Apparently someone showed them a video of me performing last week after I told them I would stop singing and change my major from music to business. They threatened to stop paying my tuition if It wasn't changed by the end of this semester. I just wanted them to know that as a junior, changing my major to a major as rigorous as business would be the stupidest shit I could ever do. It would result in me graduating late, hence making them spend more money on tuition.

Did they care? Hell no. They just didn't want their son doing anything that isn't contributing to the Waters family business. Me singing wasn't doing that.

"Mari you know imma always be here for you right? Despite all the shit we go through, I want you to be able to run to me whenever you need to vent or get something off your chest. I wanna be that girl for you and will do whatever it takes."

I looked down at her as she laid on my chest. I wanted to believe her, I really did. There was just something in me that didnt. I loved Trinity and would have loved for us to still be together but she deadass did some foul shit.

"I hear you Trin."

"Do you really?"

I sighed. "Yes I do. What do you want me to say? We can't just sit here and act like everything's okay between us. You can't just give me some great ass head then boom we all good. It doesn't work like that."

"Then what can I do? You're not understanding the part of me wanting to fix things. Yeah we did some shit but why can't that just be a part of the past? Why can't we start over and give us another try? We clearly can't leave each other alone."

"You say we clearly can't leave others alone like what we are doing is healthy."

"Okay, so let's make it healthy then Mari."

"I'm not going through this with you for the second time."

"Just for once can you forget about the past? Damn Mari."